Honey and Clover, Vol. 9 Quotes

“Every time we think about being happy again, it hurts to be alive.
Because it seems an inordinate thing for us to wish for.
And because we think that day will never come for us.
And that's why the only thing we can do for now...
...is just try to get through each night.”
― Chica Umino, Honey and Clover, Vol. 9

“I had wanted to call him.
There were so many things I wanted to talk to him about.
And that I wanted to ask him about. But... I kind of hated myself... for feeling that way.
Because... thinking about Nomiya-san... felt like a betrayal of myself, of everything I'd felt for the past six years.
It made my feelings for Mayama seem like a lie.

Other people might think it's pathetic.
That I'm pathetic.
But my feelings for Mayama...
My love for him...
Was the only thing I had.
It was my treasure. My cold, bright treasure.

Dear God. I never wanted to be saved. I wanted to stay miserably in love with Mayama forever.
I wanted to stay in love with him for ten years, twenty years, so he would know just how strong my love was.
...Even though I knew that would be totally meaningless.”
― Chica Umino, Honey and Clover, Vol. 9