First and Forever Quotes

“You’ll always be my first love, Ava. Everything else is insignificant.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“You’re my girl, Ava. My first and forever.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Everything I’ve done since the first day I met you has been for you. Every sacrifice I’ve made, every decision…” He holds a hand to his heart. “Every beat of my fucking heart has been for you. And I’ve tried so hard to be there for you through everything. No matter what was going on in my life, I pushed it all aside so that I could be your strength.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“You’re it for me. If there’s no you, then there’s nothing else. No one else.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I don’t think we can choose the direction in which our heart beats. Because I didn’t want to fall in love with you. I didn’t want to fall in love at all. But then you came along and…and I told you early on that I was falling for you, but I lied. I was already there. And now I can’t imagine what my life would be like without you.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I don’t think I can be just friends with you Not now. Not when I know what it’s like to have all of you.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Do you love her?”
“My heart beats for her.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“You’re my reason, Ava. You both are.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I don’t get to speak to Ava as much as I want to. Or need to, really. I’m a goner. For real. And I’m not even mad about it.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“You know that jacket’s got my name on the back.” “It does?” He nods. “Kind of makes you mine now.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Ava: Once upon a time, you were my favorite brother. Trevor: Once upon a time, my sister grew the hell up and stopped being such a brat. Ava: Fine. Love you. Bye Trevor: Love you, too. Shithead.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“How was your first time?” Oscar asks him, and I don’t know how we got to this conversation. Is this what guys talk about?
Connor says, “The first six seconds, I was kind of nervous. But the last six…that was fucking money!”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“There’s just me. Existing in a foreign world, living a life I thought I wanted while loving a girl who can’t love me back.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“He cups my neck, his forehead resting against mine. Breath warm against my lips, he whispers, “Ava, you know my heart”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“When the world is at its darkest…” I gasp. “…that’s when the magic appears.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“And now, according to her, she wants to wait. Apparently, it’s her therapist’s advice. Because her therapist wants to make sure Ava is following her heart and not the parts between her legs that might be calling to me. I don’t see what’s wrong with her vagina calling to me. I wouldn’t mind it. Hell, it can call to me mid-game, and I’d go running.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“My phone rings, and I grunt in frustration. Austin’s stupid face lights up my screen. “What?” I snap. Ava laughs into my neck, her hands flat on my stomach. She pushes down, grinding into me as she sucks hard on my neck. “You’re so fucking bad,” I whisper, grabbing a hand full of her ass to bring her closer to me. “Why am I bad?” Austin asks. Ava muffles her cackle on my shoulder”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“With her mouth open on mine, I ask, “Can I touch your butt?”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“And this might sound extra cheesy and super wrong, but… you were the first boy I loved, Trevor, and that won’t ever change. You’re always going to be my big brother, and I’m always going to be a pain in your ass.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“When we pull apart, he asks, “Hey, when I get back, will you do that thing with your tongue on my—” Laughing, I start to walk away from him for the second time and shout, so everyone around us can hear, “Yes, Connor! I promise! When you get back, I’ll wax your nipples again! Your asshole, too!”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I shrug. “I’m a little insecure, okay?” He huffs out a breath, then kisses me once. “What can I do to make you feel better about it?” Reaching up, I run a finger along his forehead. “Get my name tattooed right here.” He laughs. “Just A V A?” Nodding, I say, “And Diaz. Just so it’s clear. Maybe Ava E. D. Diaz.” “That’s a lot of letters, babe.” “Well, lucky you have a giant head.” His head throws back with his laughter, and I smile, pull back a little to give him room to breathe.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I’ll miss you so much,” he says, just as the warning bell goes off. He curses under his breath, and I kiss him quickly. “I have to go,” I rush out. Another short kiss. “I’ll see you on Monday.” Then I shrug out of his hold and start running up the steps, the ache in my chest causing the heat behind my eyes. It’s just four days, I keep telling myself. I can do this. With each step up, each inch I move farther from him, the stronger my emotions become. Tears well in my eyes, and I can’t fight them off. And I don’t want to. Shit. I turn quickly, thankful he’s still there watching me. And then I run back to him, faster than I’ve ever run before. I didn’t want him to see me like this, but I can’t let him go without saying goodbye properly. He pushes off his truck when I get near enough, his arms open, and I practically jump into his embrace, my arms around his neck while he wraps his around my waist. Feet off the ground, my legs circle him. “I don’t want you to go,” I mumble into his neck. It’s stupid and petty, and I’m The Worst Girlfriend Ever. “Dammit, Ava, don’t mess with my emotions like that!” I rear back, still holding on to him. “I didn’t want you to know how badly I’ll miss you,” I murmur, unable to control my pout.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Trevor shivers. “You’re scary,” he says, at the same time Connor takes the spatula from me, smacks my ass with it. I exaggerate a moan as I bite my lip, look up at him. Connor laughs. Trevor mumbles, “I do not want to know what goes on behind closed doors with you two.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“It’s the filthiest, dirtiest sex we’ve ever had, but it’s also the most meaningful”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“I once had dinner here, and they had two different sized forks.” I laugh under my breath. “And knives. And spoons, too. And I’m pretty sure I ate a pigeon.” My head tilts back with the force of my guffaw. “You probably did.” His eyes soak me in. “I love watching you laugh.” My heart soars. “I love you.” He smiles, standing to full height again. “Did you have a pool house?” “Yeah, I did.” “Did you have a game room?” “Uh huh.” “Did you have wings?”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“How was your first time?” Oscar asks him, and I don’t know how we got to this conversation. Is this what guys talk about? Connor says, “The first six seconds, I was kind of nervous. But the last six… that was fucking money!”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Thank my mom,” I say, just as Connor’s main opponent walks past us. He leers at my chest. “Damn, ho. You ever want to drop that has-been and get with a winner, I’m right here.” Five voices all at once: “Hey, now,” Corey says, the tamest of them all. I snap, “I’d rather eat shit and die!” at the same time Trevor warns, “Say that shit about my sister again and see what happens,” and Connor who grunts, “Watch your fucking mouth.” But Mom—she pulls out the big guns: “Eat a bag of dicks, you cocksucking little twerp!”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Instead, she grasps my hand, places it right on her scars, and looks up at me. “You know why I like you, Connor?” I grin from ear-to-ear. “Because I’m handsome?” “Because you treat me like I’m human.”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Connor: There r grls. Ava: At the invitational? Connor: yes Ava: Oh, I bet they love you. Connor: 10 Ava: 10 girls? Connor: Yes Ava: Showed any of them your weenus? Connor: lol no. grls hv cooties”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever

“Connor: He juz sed TITTIES Ava: ? Connor: Snorin roommate Ava: Connor, you need to get some rest. Throw something at him. Connor: Shoe? Ava: Not yours. His. Connor: K Connor: He up now. He go for run. I go sleep. Ava: Goodnight. Connor: Thx”
― Jay McLean, First and Forever