Racing Through the Dark Quotes

“The past is as important as the future, but we only live in the here and now.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“The manner in which one loses the battle can sometimes outshine the victory.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“The smallest issues can become the most important things in life and reality slips away.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“If you're not at the front, you're not in the race.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I was awarded 'Most Aggressive Rider of the Day', generally given to the most spectacular loser of the day.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I might have changed, but that did not mean the sport had.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“What an idiot I'd been. What a spoilt brat. What a bloody fool.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I'd just killed some of the best riders in the world - and I was clean. I'd taken nothing - no EPO, no cortisone, no testosterone, no painkillers, no caffeine. I had justified to myself that I was a great rider without drugs - yet perversely given myself the green light to dope again. I'd proved what I could do clean - how much more could I do if I was doped?”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I was not a doper, I told myself - I just injected myself to recover and needed pills to sleep.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“Never before had I raced in an angry mood and I couldn't believe how powerful it was. Now I understood why Lance used anger so effectively and why he hated the people he had to beat at the tour.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark: The Fall and Rise of David Millar

“I didn't want to take it. I knew it was a powerful drug, but I also knew it was a catabolic drug that consumed the body.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“Preparation was a term I was to hear more and more. It had another more sinister meaning. If you were prepared, it meant you were doped.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I’d never considered myself to be that ambitious or driven before, yet I stood there waiting for us to roll out through the start line knowing that taking part wasn’t enough. I wanted to be a racer, not just a finisher.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark: The Fall and Rise of David Millar

“This place has been my home. They liked me here. Not any more. Now they will look the other way. Now I don't belong.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I didn't care about goals or expectations any more, I was just determined to race my heart out.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“It was ridiculous really. I had just won a major race despite not being in top form, yet I was going to dope.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“It was very quiet at the hotel, as if there had been a death in the family. When you have quit the Tour, nobody really knows what to say or do. (...) Everything I'd previously achieved meant nothing; all I was now was a pro rider who couldn't finish the Tour de France.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“Nothing was being done to help the non-dopers, to encourage or support them. Even the clean riders like myself and Moncout knew how easy it was to cheat the tests.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“I had grown used to getting a pat on the back and being told after a good result: 'Well done, David - you should be happy, you're the first clean rider.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“One group of riders doped, the others alongside them racing clean. You can work out for yourselves which group was fastest.”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark

“If the riders, governing bodies, teams, race organisers and media weren't doing anything about it, then what the hell could I, a 20-year-old neo-pro from Scotland, do about it?”
― David Millar, Racing Through the Dark