If Only Quotes

“I came to London to make my dreams come true - big, naive head on me at twenty-two. Going to work every day physically hurts.' I hadn't realised how strongly I felt about my lack of a career, my Groundhog Day existence, until I uttered those last two words and realised I wasn't exaggerating. A kind of agony wrapped me in its razor-edged wires every day as I cycled to the Sugar Pot, to Kenneth and to my hideaway cupboard; it was dull, like my skin was smeared with a strong numbing cream.”
― Melanie Murphy, If Only

“There was no doubt about it: more heads turned for me in this slim, fit body. Businessmen, men with women on their arms, women in lipstick and others too beautiful to ever notice me normally: face after face examined me as they passed, and, as they gawped, I couldn't decide if I loved the attention more or less than I despised people for their predictability.”
― Melanie Murphy, If Only

“Today's memories would become tomorrow's memories when the sun set”
― Melanie Murphy, If Only

“We both smiled, and I leaned my head in to press my forehead into his. It only lasted seconds, but it felt more intense than I'd expected, like the sting of a burn caused by a little steam shooting from a kettle's snout, and it was as though I'd popped a joint back into place. Like all he needed was for me to be there with him and to understand. Complete oneness.”
― Melanie Murphy, If Only