Goodbye Paradise Quotes

“And then he kissed him. Right on the lips. In front of God and everybody.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Aw,” he whispered, curling into my body. “I love you, too. So much. That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you. Except I sucked your dick instead.”
― Sarina Bowen, In Front of God and Everyone

“I cuddled closer to him, while we both listened to the silence. “Please forgive me,” I whispered eventually. The short pause before he spoke almost gutted me. “I need you to love me, even when things get hard.” he said. “I do, though. Always. I’m going to prove it to you.” The only question was how.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“JOSHUA ROYCE AND CALEB SMITH Cordially invite you to join them as they exchange vows in a celebration of marriage 02.14.15 4 o’clock in the afternoon Ralph’s Tavern 2900 South Boulevard Hintenville, MA Reception to follow”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“When my sadness finally lifted, I found my head on Josh’s shoulder. He stroked my hair slowly, patiently. “Josh?” “Mmm?” he said. “Can we get married?” His breath caught, and then I felt his smile against my forehead. “You do mean to each other, right?” I squeezed his knee. “Yes. Would you do that for me?” “I would like that very much,” he said in a small voice.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I sat down beside her, and she kicked her stocking feet into my lap. Sitting here like this was forbidden on the Compound. Because the path to hell was paved with friends touching each other’s feet.”
― Sarina Bowen, In Front of God and Everyone

“There was a long silence. I found myself holding my breath. I’d just ordered him repeatedly to leave. And now I was terrified that he would. And then he did. The sound of the outer door downstairs broke me in half.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“The first spurt hit the back of my throat, and I swallowed. And it was more of the desperate, half-formed moans that Josh let loose which finally did me in. Thrusting through my own fist, I came hard, spraying my stomach, and probably Josh’s ass. He pulled out, sliding backward through the mess, landing on my chest in a shuddering pile. “Still coming,” he gasped. I reached down between his legs, cupping those heavy balls. He groaned, writhing on my slicked stomach, and then collapsed. “Jesus. I think you needed that,” I said, rubbing his back, where the lean muscle was firm under my hand. I’d been yearning to touch him like this. Every time he passed through a room where I was, I had to hold myself back. Josh answered me on a mumble that I could not understand. But it didn’t matter. His fingers threaded into my hair while he kissed my neck.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“That was crazy,” I said eventually. “Crazy good? Or Crazy-and-now-you’re-a-sinner?” I turned my face away. “Both. But don’t make fun.” “I’m sorry,” he said, sounding worried. “But every time we touch each other, I feel more certain, not less.” “Certain of what?” “Of this,” he said immediately. “Of living my own life, the way I want to. It isn’t just that it feels good.” He squeezed my hand. “Although it sure the hell does. It also feels right.” “Really? Because I doubt Maggie is going to see it your way.” Caleb was silent, although his thumb stroked my knuckles. “I don’t know what Maggie would think. But she’s just one person.” “A pretty important one.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I really didn’t want him apologizing to me. I reached up, circling him in my arms, pulling him down beside me. “I love you.” I could say that without guilt. Because loving someone wasn’t a sin. Other things… sure. But love could never be a crime. “Aw,” he whispered, curling into my body. “I love you, too. So much. That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you. Except I sucked your dick instead.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Baby, are you okay?” No. Not at all. But please feel free to call me ‘baby’ again. Anytime you want. “Josh?” He crept back up and lay beside me. “Didn’t you like it?” I peeked at him from under my hand. He was still the same, calm Caleb that I’d always known. “I never liked anything more,” I admitted. “But we shouldn’t have done it.” Maybe another man would have gotten mad. But Caleb just reached up a hand and pushed the damp hair off my forehead. “I wanted to wait until we were somewhere more… secure,” he said. “But I’m not going to feel guilty about this. And I hope you won’t, either.” I squeezed my eyes shut. “It’s a sin.” “No,” he whispered, still stroking my face. “Hurting someone is a sin. Did I hurt you?” “No.” “Does this hurt someone else? Are you going to marry a woman, Josh? Am I keeping you from that?” “No,” I sighed. It was funny, but I’d always known I wouldn’t marry a woman. A wife would never be found for me at Paradise. And not once had I felt bad about it.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Caleb!” I gasped. “What are you doing?” “Told you I wouldn’t let you make a mess. Gonna use my mouth on you. I’m going to suck you off, and swallow everything you’ve got.” A wave of burning hot lust shot down my spine. I flexed my hips upward, because I just had to. Caleb yanked down my underwear and moved, until he was kneeling over my body. And before I could even prepare myself, he’d bent his head down to lap his tongue against my cockhead. My shout of approval could probably be heard all over Nebraska. A big hand grasped the base of my shaft. Then, he began to bathe my dick in kisses. Wet, sloppy kisses everywhere. My hips began shaking with excitement. “Oh, Caleb. I can’t…” He opened his mouth and sucked me down. I never felt anything so amazing in my life. His mouth was tight and wet all around me. He gave a good hard suck. Just one. And then I was coming. And Caleb was swallowing. My whole body shook with joy. Caleb moaned and he cupped my balls in one hand and I’d forgotten to breathe for entirely too long…”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“My face wasn’t the same as I remembered, either. I saw a squarer jaw then I used to have, and my hair was bleached out from the summer’s sunshine. Not half bad, I realized. Standing there, I looked a long time at myself. Which was precisely why there were no mirrors in Paradise.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Owing to the math, many of us would never get the chance to marry. But neither would we be welcome to stay on. Five years from now, quite a few of my bunkhouse roommates would be gone from Paradise. Some would run away, but many would be kicked out. Nobody spoke of this practice, of course. There were many, many idiosyncrasies at Paradise that were not to be mentioned aloud, but the throwing away of half our young men was the ugliest one.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Teenage boys were very useful for farm work, of course. But the men did not like having their grown sons in the house. They took up too much space, for one. But also, it was not fit to have lusty young men share a roof with so many women. Since the girls in Paradise were married off at seventeen or eighteen, that meant that the youngest wives were often the same age as the bachelors.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Biting back a sigh, I grabbed a pod and cracked it in my hand. Discomfort and shame were my constant companions. Caleb covered for my mediocrity as best he could. My best friend had saved my backside too many times to count. And how did I repay him? With sinful, lusty thoughts. Just another day in Paradise. That’s what they called this place where we lived and worked and prayed when they told us to.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I love you. - I could say it without guilt. Because loving someone wasn't a sin. Other things...sure. But love could never be a crime.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I can’t wait," I agreed.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Caleb,” he whispered against my skin. “Just make me yours.”
“You,” I said, kissing him on the forehead, “are already mine. You have always been mine.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“My whole life I’d wanted this impossible thing. And I didn’t know why it was happening now. But it was everything I’d ever wanted.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“When I get to touch you, every awful day we’ve survived seems worth it.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I need you to love me, even when things get hard.” he said.
“I do, though. Always. I’m going to prove it to you.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Episcopal priest was waiting to marry us. Maggie”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“How did I end up with someone so caring and beautiful? It boggled the mind. “I love you, Josh.” “That’s just the horny talking,” he said, without looking up. “Not true,” I promised, and he grinned.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I’d booked three nights at a hotel in Miami Beach, Florida. It would be our first vacation ever, and I couldn’t wait. The pictures on the hotel’s website showed couples lazing in hammocks, or sipping cocktails beside the pool. Also? Miami Beach was supposed to be one of the gayest vacation spots in America. And Caleb and I had never seen the ocean yet. There was just so much to look forward to.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Mmm,” Josh said, kissing me. Licking me. He was pressing his tongue everywhere, and it was crazy. “God in heaven,” I panted. “That is…unnng.” I couldn’t finish the sentence. All that wet warmth made me push my face into the pillow and moan. And this while he stroked my dick with one hand and my inner thighs with another. “You’re so beautiful,” Josh said behind me. The timbre of his voice was the sweetest thing I’d ever heard. “I can’t wait to fuck you.” “Do it,” I panted.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I can take more,” I told him, “should I grab the lube?” “No,” he breathed. “We don’t need it yet.” I was about to argue the point when I realized why he’d said that. Josh’s lips landed at my crease, and at the same unbelievable moment, his wet, hot tongue swept over my hole. The moan I let out could have been heard down at Ralph’s Tavern. “Mmm,” Josh said, kissing me.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Leaving my forehead on the bed, I lifted my naked ass in the air, as he’d asked me to. It wasn’t the sexiest position, either. “I feel so exposed,” I said. A beat went by before he replied. “It is so exposed,” he said quietly. “There’s”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“I turned my head and spoke right into his ear. “I’m so hard for you right now. That’s never going to change. Whether I’m stupid or smart, and whether you still love me anymore, or not. I never could help loving you. It’s just the way that I’m wired.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise

“Well I needed it. Probably tonight. Because if Caleb was serious about leaving me, I was not going to spend another night beside him. Not ever again.”
― Sarina Bowen, Goodbye Paradise