The Third Hotel Quotes

“The two impulses cannot be separated. The desire to have a life and the desire to disappear from it. The world is unlivable and yet we live in it every day.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“She could go on into infinity, and yet she understood that knowing another person was not a stable condition. Knowing was kinetic, ineffable, and it had limits, but the precise location of those limits, the moment at which the knowing stopped and the not-knowing began, was invisible. You would know you had reached the border only after you had surpassed it.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“She did not know how to grieve in the context of her life.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“It was brutal, the mortality contract. It came for everyone and no one was prepared.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Death could make a person feel righteous in a way they had no right to be. Nothing in the world was less personal and nothing felt more like a poison arrow sent straight for your heart.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“My point here is that the grieving are very dangerous, Richard said. They are like injured animals with fearsome claws, bloodied and pushed into a corner.

Okay, said Clare.

They are deranged, he continued. They shouldn't be let out of the house. Immediately after the funeral some sort of waiting period should be instituted, a period of confinement. It is a matter of public safety.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“She might have said, I am not who you think I am. She might have said, I am experiencing a dislocation of reality.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Grief could take the form of violence too, could give a false sense of permission, erase the world around, and that was what frightened Clare most about violence, how transferable it was.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“There were three sides to a marriage: public and private and who-fucking-knows, one lived and one performed and one a thundering mystery.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Behind every death lay a set of questions. To move on was to agree to not disturb these questions, to let them settle with the body under the earth. Yet some questions so thoroughly dismantled the terms of your own life, turning away was gravitationally impossible. So she would not be moving on. She would keep disturbing and disturbing. She imagined herself standing over a grave with a shovel and hacking away at the soil.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Something she and her husband had in common but rarely discussed was the absence of a desire for children, to fill their home with people besides themselves. It was a silent agreement, felt rather than spoken, and in her experience the soundest agreements were the ones that did not require the reassurances of language. Therefore this line of questioning was the inverse of what she usually fielded, since a childless married woman in her thirties was so often regarded, by men and women alike, as a puzzle or a pity. What's the story here? people would ask, inquests designed to make women like her suspect there was something malformed inside, blinding them to the hideous reality of their choice.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Easygoing"--that was the world people used, and in time she became suspicious of anyone who could be described in such terms. What was so easy about going?”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, Clare said, with bitterness. What doesn't kill you leaves you alive, Richard countered. She spat water onto the floor. What doesn't kill you only leaves you feeling broken and insane.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Horror films had taught her that a person could will a thing into existence, but once it was outside their consciousness, the consciousness that had been busily inventing simultaneous possibilities, it became a force unto itself, ferocious and uncontrollable.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Do you still find meaning in sunrises?”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“The earliest betrayals stung the sharpest.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“She felt like someone had carved her heart out of her chest and then turned her loose to stumble through a dark forest on a frigid night.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“What exactly were the rights of the dying? Were they really so boundless?”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Looking back, she supposed that had been one miracle of their marriage--even if a person was on the brink of swallowing fingernails and the other was thinking deeply about a problem they could not share, there was still someone to hold you as you wept through the night.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Sports, he would say, and she would go to sports. News, he would say a little while later, and she would go there. Sports, he would say, and she would go back. Where have you been? he would say, and she would tell him, Right here. No, where have you been? he would say. I have worked very hard at being nowhere and now I'm right here. Sports, he would say, and she was already there.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel

“Once she emerged from the depths of a cavernous garage, a glazed vase tucked under her arm, and could not find her husband on the sidewalk or browsing the tables. It turned out he had gone to the corner store at the end of the block for a snack, and in the time before he returned, she was seized by the terrifying thought that she had dreamed their entire marriage.”
― Laura van den Berg, The Third Hotel