Saving Noah Quotes

“We fear what we don’t understand, so it’s easier to think of them as monsters. It makes us feel safe rather than having to think about the possibility that some people are just born that way, and it could be any of us or someone we love.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“We forgave murderers, not pedophiles.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“He was my heart, living and breathing outside my body.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“It was too much to hope for a light at the end of the tunnel. I gave up on that long ago, but if I looked hard enough, there was always light on my next step.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Nobody told me grief became so unpredictable over time. I never knew when it was going to hit, so there wasn’t any way to prepare for the attacks. The attacks had grown farther apart, but they’d never be gone, and I’d never be prepared. It didn’t help to remind myself I’d survived them before and would survive them again because, in the moment, I was sure it was the one that would kill me.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“He gave me a halfhearted smile. “You’re right. I’ve got something worse. At least when you have cancer people still love you.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“If you did everything right and it still turned out wrong, then what was the point?”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Death was intensely private, and I’d never felt so close to another human being as I did when I held him during his final minutes.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Time had dragged. Nobody told me time slowed down with tragedy and how each minute became excruciating when it was painful to merely exist.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Being his parent didn’t stop after he died, and it was my job as his mother to protect his memory in the same way I protected him while he was alive.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Denial was a powerful protective mechanism and I felt naked with mine stripped away.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“I couldn’t sever my love for him any more than I could cut off my arm.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“You’re right. I’ve got something worse. At least when you have cancer people still love you.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“The only pets the kids were allowed to have were goldfish, but somehow we managed to kill more than we ever kept. Eventually, we gave up trying.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“There had to be a God, because there had to be a heaven. A time when I got to see him again, and he was the one to walk me home.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Time had dragged. Nobody told me time slowed down with tragedy and how each minute became excruciating when it was painful to merely exist. Just when I was gaining my footing, something would remind me of it and send me into an emotional tailspin. Most of the time it was the little things, like a college admission packet in the mail, an email about ordering hot lunches for the next month, or lyrics to a song he liked. The grief would pummel me, and I had no choice except to succumb to it until it passed.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“fell in love with him instantly, marveling at his perfection and that I’d grown him cell by cell in my body. My feelings stemmed from the deepest parts of me, parts I didn’t know existed until I had him. He wasn’t a stranger when they placed him in my arms. It was like a missing piece of myself had been returned.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“I might have lost my faith in God, but I hadn’t lost my fear.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“I was unbelievably lonely but rarely allowed myself to admit it. There were times when the debilitating aloneness threatened to swallow me like a black hole and today was one of those days, but I’d gotten used to breaking up my days into manageable moments to get through them.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Usually, when you were in a state of grief, people stepped gingerly around you. They were careful not to break you any more than you’d already been broken. They were gentle and kind, speaking in quiet tones as if you might crumble if they spoke too loudly. Not so with us. There was no kindness. No sympathy. Nobody acknowledged our world had been destroyed. I was completely alone in my grief and loss.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Being his parent didn’t stop after he died,”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“times when the debilitating aloneness threatened to swallow me like a black hole and today was one of those days,”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“telling myself it will be different—that this time it’s going to work, and I’m not going to react. The electrodes are strapped to my head. I think that’s why they shave our heads, because how would we ever get the sticky glue off if they didn’t? I don’t even bother trying to get all of it off anymore. Pieces of it are permanently stuck to my pillows. They never talk about this part with our parents. Does Mom know what they do to me? What these sessions consist of? She can’t because she’d never allow it if she did. But I can’t tell her. It’s another secret I have to keep. There’s so many secrets about this place and I can’t tell any of them because I don’t want to cause”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“He stopped being my son when he raped those girls.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“to approach”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Did we really need to get a good night's sleep for suicide the next day?”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Mommy, can I please stay overnight with you guys? Please?” she”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“It’s still a shock to my system every morning when I wake up that I’m here. I don’t think that part will ever get easier. And as much as I try to convince myself that I’m not as bad as they are, I’m here. I’m locked up with them, and that means I’m one of them.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“Kids didn’t get arrested unless they committed horrible crimes, and I didn’t view what he’d done as a crime. I”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah

“I felt like I would die, but I didn’t because you can’t die from grief even if it feels like you might.”
― Lucinda Berry, Saving Noah