My Fair Junkie Quotes

“I know feelings are temporary, that they have a beginning, a middle, and an end. However, to an addict like me, they feel overwhelming, unbearable, and endless. Therein lies the violent urgency to fix or escape them.”
― Amy Dresner, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean

“Honey, you’ve got a demon inside you that would happily see you dead. It’s a side of you that wants to sabotage everything.”
― Amy Dresner, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean

“I’m not proud of what happened, but I also refuse to be ashamed.”
― Amy Dresner, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean

“cling to his arms. “You’re like a wire mesh monkey, you know that?” he says. “What the fuck are you talking about?” I sniffle. “They did these experiments, in, like, the sixties, where they took baby monkeys from their moms and then… didn’t you ever see those black-and-white photos?” “No.” “Some of the monkeys were raised with a fake terry cloth mom. And some were raised with a fake wire mesh mom.” “What’s your point?” “The ones raised by the wire mesh moms were fucked up. They were, like… forty percent more likely to brandish a knife.” “You’re an asshole.” He holds me for a bit in silence and then kisses my neck. “I’m coming back. So don’t freak out, my little wire mesh monkey.”
― Amy Dresner, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean

“As they wheeled me into the elevator, I gave him the finger and shouted a loud "Fuck youuuuu," just as the doors closed. Very dramatic exit.

In the ambulance, as the paramedic started an IV line, she said, "Why not just get a divorce, honey? I mean, you don't have to kill yourself."

"You don't understand," I murmured.”
― Amy Dresner, My Fair Junkie: A Memoir of Getting Dirty and Staying Clean