Crushed Black Velvet Quotes

“I hate forcing myself to go to bed to avoid committing suicide.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Now I’m
sober and I
realize, I
didn’t drink to
escape the world,
I drank to escape
myself”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“I don’t need the facts. I’m a Pisces.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“to live a
substance-free
life under the
pressures of
the daily grind
is state-sponsored
suicide”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“and tonight we held each
other, one last time,
like a dance to a
slow song
on an empty
floor,
underneath a single
disco ball
in front of
no one
at all”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“I’ve looked at so
much porn that
every woman I meet
looks vaguely
familiar”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Some people are hard to forget, but some people are hard to remember.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“It’s sad
that burnt marshmallows
make me think of
methamphetamine,
when they
should bring
back childhood
memories of
s’mores”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“We had scar-tissue
romance and ours was
a relationship of saying
goodbye—every time
we fought, every time
we fucked, and every time
we called it quits, before
picking up our knives
again”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“I traded in my
freedom for
a needy, whiny
and defiant
four-year-old,
a junky girlfriend,
and a relationship
riddled with
someone else’s
problems

Now, I stare
out of open
windows like
a wild mustang
craving open
fields

I clench my
crotch, where
my balls
used to be,
and I hum a
loathsome tune,
like an out-
of-work castrato
who’s realized his
dreams of someday
having his own family
are gone”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“I’m breaking
down
and I’ve
got so
little time
to
do it”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“We aim to be
men who’ll make
our mothers proud,
but we end up
making them cry,
and are only
slightly better
than our fathers,
at best”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Adios

Her pretty picture
lying on the
ground was like
the toppling
of some
fascist
regime
And burning
the photograph,
was the
celebration”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Fear is the vehicle in which love can do its worst.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Some days I’m
trying to force
a smile so
hard it feels
like I might
shit my
pants”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“There’s a universal
understanding between
men of the silent sorrow
a man endures when
he loses a woman he
loves”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“But now that I’m scrubbing
toilets on my hands & knees,
with four degrees,
I realize that one escape route
leads to another”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“We should’ve
thrown fucking riots
the first time they
had us ring up
and bag our own
groceries”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“He was tired
of being called
a fag and teased
for his sexuality
by one of the guards,
so he tried to hang
himself, twice

The kid got a little
closer the second
time, but I won’t be
around to see a
third”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“You never really
know about the
people who
daydream of
killing you.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“I talk about writing and write so much because aside from music, it’s the only thing giving me peace and reason and purpose. Everyone is looking for answers but I don’t have them and I’m not the answer, but I feel like if I could see the face of God, I’d be better, healed—absolved. I feel like a bastard and like I’m pushing a Ponzi scheme every time someone comes to me for guidance and I push them to the “right” path when I’m just as lost as they are. And it makes me feel like shit every time someone wants to look up to me, or when people call me strong or brave or amazing or want to tell me how “great” I am. And then, the next moment, I’m fine, until the next tide of emotion comes again.

I’m just a person who’s had a lot of time to think—a flawed and fucked-up person.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“When I was a
child my world
wasn’t black
and white,
it was grey,
until I got
beat up
enough times
to realize
my skin was
beige, and
different”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Two kinds of
people will love you:
those who confess
it, and those who
show you, like
cards on a table,
because love is
a gamble”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet

“Failure is the new success.”
― Phil Volatile, Crushed Black Velvet