The Rehearsal Quotes

“She is a loner, too bright for the slutty girls and too savage for the bright girls, haunting the edges and corners of the school like a sullen disillusioned ghost”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Remember that anybody who is clever enough to set you free is clever enough to enslave you.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“What’s the likelihood? That the one girl who makes my heart race is the one girl who wants me in return? That the accident of my attraction coincides with the accident of hers?”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“It is a mark of the depth of their wounding that they are pretending they suspected it all along. Everything that they have seen and been told about love so far has been an inside perspective, and they are not prepared for the crashing weight of this exclusion. It dawns on them now how much they never saw and how little they were wanted, and with this dawning comes a painful re-imagining of the self as peripheral, uninvited, and utterly minor.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Theatre is a concentrate of life as normal. Theatre is a purified version of real life, an extraction, an essence of human behaviour that is stranger and more tragic and more perfect than everything that is ordinary about me and you.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“I’ve been looking at all the ordinary staples of flirting," says Julia, "like biting your lip and looking away just a second too late, and laughing a lot and finding every excuse to touch, light fingertips on a forearm or a thigh that emphasize and punctuate the laughter. I’ve been thinking about what a comfort these things are, these textbook methods, precisely because they need no decoding, no translation. Once, a long time ago, you could probably bite your lip and it would mean, I am almost overcome with desiring you. Now you bite your lip and it means, I want you to see that I am almost overcome with desiring you, so I am using the plainest and most universally accepted symbol I can think of to make you see. Now it means, Both of us know the implications of my biting my lip, and what I am trying to say. We are speaking a language, you and I together, a language that we did not invent, a language that is not unique to our uttering. We are speaking someone else’s lines. It’s a comfort.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“There’s no such thing as innocence any more," the girl said, "there’s only ignorance. You think you are holding on to something pure, but you aren’t. You’re just ignorant. You are handicapped by everything you don’t yet know.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“I require of all my students… that they are downy and pubescent, pimpled with sullen mistrust, and boiling away with private fury and ardor and uncertainty and gloom. I require that they wait in the corridor for ten minutes at least before each lesson, tenderly nursing their injustices, picking miserably at their own unworthiness as one might finger a scab or caress a scar. If I am to teach your daughter, you darling hopeless and inadequate mother, she must be moody and bewildered and awkward and dissatisfied and wrong. When she realizes that he body is a secret, a dark and yawning secret of which she becomes more and more ashamed, come back to me. You must understand me on this point. I cannot teach children.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Many of us fear women. WE are afraid of woman as woman, longing for her as virgin or as madonna or as whore. It is not by becoming a woman that we will address this fear. It is by becoming the things she touches, the spaces she moves through, the fractured gestures that are not signs in themselves but are nonetheless hers and thus a part of her. If we discover the weight of these small things, then she will appear not as an idea but as a life and a totality.”
― Eleanor CAtton, The Rehearsal

“The illusion of depth in a character is created simply by withholding information from an audience. A character will seem complex and intriguing only if we don't know the reasons why.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Gaining control isn't the exciting part. Sleeping with a minor isn't exciting because you get to boss them around. It's exciting because you're risking so much. And taking a risk is exciting because of the possibility that you might lose, not the possibility that you might win.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“This girl is good at voices. She actually wanted to be Isolde, because Isolde has a better part and this girl is pale and stringy and rumpled and always looks slightly alarmed, which are qualities that don’t quite fit Isolde, and so she plays Bridget instead. In truth it is her longing to be an Isolde that most characterises her as a Bridget: Bridget is always wanting to be somebody else.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“I would make up silver lies studded with shards of perfect detail like mosaic splinters, sharp and everlasting, the kind of tiny faultless detail that would make them all sure that what I said was true. I would have alibis. I would bring in other people and teach them a story, and rehearse it so carefully and for so long that soon they’d all start to believe that what they said was actually true.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“In my experience the most forceful and aggressive mothers are always the least inspired, the most unmusical of souls, all of them profoundly unsuccessful women who wear their daughter’s image on their breast like a medal, like a bright deflection from their own unshining selves.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“The stage is not real life, and the stage is not a copy of real life. Just like the statue , the stage is only a place where things are made present. Things that would not ordinarily happen are made to happen on stage. The stage is a site at which people can access things that would otherwise not be available to them. The stage is a place where we can witness things in such a way that it becomes unnecessary for us to feel or perform these things ourselves.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“But what you need to understand, my darling," she whispers, "is that this little taste your daughter has had is a taste of what could be. She’s swallowed it. It’s inside her now.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“When the lights go out, the parents cry and ask each other what did he do to her, but the girls are burning with a question of their own: what did she do? What does she know now that makes her so dangerous, like the slow amber leak of a noxious fume?”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“At high school they expect answers, but at university all you're supposed to do is dispute the wording of the question.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“It is not yet a feeling that points her in a direction. It is just the feeling of a vacuum, a void waiting to be filled.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Remember that these years of your daughters life are only the rehearsal for everything that comes after. Remember that its in her best interests to slip up now, while she's still safe in the green room.....Dont wait until she's out in the savage white light of the floods, where everyone can see. Let her practice everything in a safe environment, with a helmet and kneepads and packed lunches, and you at the end of the hall with the door cracked open in case anyone cries out in the long hours of the night.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Virginity is a myth, by the way. There is no on-off switch, no point of return. It's just a first experience, like any other. Everything surrounding it, all the lights and curtains and special effects- that's just part of the myth.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“The saxophone does not speak that language. The saxophone speaks the language of the underground, the jaded melancholy of the half-light—grimy and sexy and sweaty and hard. It is the language of orphans and bastards and whores.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Finally Victoria sighs and says, “Julia, I’d be happy if you told me just enough of the facts so I could imagine it. So I could recreate it for myself. So I could imagine that I was really there.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“We learned that you can only feel one thing at one time,” says Isolde. “You can feel excitement or you can feel fear but you can never feel both. We learned why beauty is so important: beauty is important because you can’t really defile something that is already ugly, and to defile is the ultimate goal of the sexual impulse. We learned that you can always say no.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“So do you think actors know more about ordinary people than ordinary people know about themselves?' 'No,' Stanley said, 'but I'm not sure that psychologists know more about ordinary people than they know about themselves either.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal

“Näyttämön varsinainen jännitys on siinä, että jokin voi mennä vikaan minä hetkenä hyvänsä. Minä hetkenä hyvänsä jokin lavalla voi särkyä tai kaatua; joku voi sotkea vuorosanansa, joku voi pilata valot, joku voi unohtaa korostuksensa tai repliikkinsä. Elokuvan katsominen ei koskaan herätä samaa pelokkuutta, koska lopputulos on aina valmis, ania sama ja aina eheä, mutta näytelmän katsominen herättää sitä usein, koska jokin voi mennä vikaan, ja silloin joutuu katselemaan myötähäpeisin tuntein miten näyttelijät takeltelevat ja kokoavat itsensä. Mutta toisaalta, kun on teatterisalin silkinpehmeässä pimeässä, sitä myös toivoo, että jokin menisi vikaan. Sitä haluaa koko sydämestään. Sitä tuntee lämpöä jokaista näyttelijää kohtaan, jonka hattu putoaa tai nappi irtoaa. -- Jos näkee virheen, joka jää muulta yleisöltä näkemättä, sitä tuntee oikein erityistä etuoikeuden tunnetta, aivan kuin olisi nähnyt vilaukselta sauman kätketystä alusvaatteesta, jostain todella yksityisestä.”
― Eleanor Catton, The Rehearsal