Since You've Been Gone Quotes

“poem by e. e. cummings that will forever remind me of you and Stella: “i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) i am never without it . . .”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Letting go means you stop trying to control the universe of outcomes. That you’re willing to accept whatever it gives you. It doesn’t mean you’re a weak, sniveling lump. There’s so much more strength and courage in surrender.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Thing is, you have to be happy with yourself before you can be happy with someone else. If you’re not, then you’re going to be blaming the wrong person when you’re miserable”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Sometimes we have to hurt to get someplace or something we really want.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I remembered these lines from a poem by e. e. cummings that will forever remind me of you and Stella: “i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) i am never without it . . .”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I’ve learned that God places people in my life at a time I really need them. I”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“it seemed that God slammed the door on me. Or at least on my chance to experience any joy in my life. So God and I had been on talking probation for a long time, and I didn’t think either one of us had reopened the lines of communication.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I hate to tell you this, girlie, but this is life. Sometimes it’s so wonderful your heart can’t stretch enough to hold all the exquisite joy, the spectacular of the ordinary. Other times, it’s so difficult that just opening your eyes in the morning is a miracle. Feel like you’re spending your life walking up the escalator backward, watching everyone pass you up, going where you want to go, and getting what you want.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I feel like I’m on God’s permanent detention list.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I had to find a way to get out from under this black cloud, this major time-out that God had assigned me to for whatever wrongs I’d committed.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“And I don’t know what I did to deserve all of this. I’m not even going to ask how much more He can punish me, because I don’t want to know.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I should start feeling flutters. That I would probably think at first they were gas bubbles, but after a few I would come to recognize them as the beginning of the baby moving. I placed my hands on my stomach. “It’s you, isn’t it? Well, hello,” I said to my little bump. “I’m thrilled you’re here.” No one could have ever prepared me for that moment: for knowing that I wasn’t just witnessing a miracle but that it was happening inside of me. A little life stirred, and my entire life changed.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“At that moment I understood what it meant to be blessed. To be granted something beyond measure, beyond deserving, beyond myself.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“That’s it . . . my baby? That’s my baby?” I whispered the questions as if in the presence of something holy and sacred. These heartbeats echoed my heart and Wyatt’s heart. At that moment I understood what it meant to be blessed. To be granted something beyond measure, beyond deserving, beyond myself.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“They love you, and they don’t want you to be in pain. But they’re wrong thinking that letting go means giving up or that you should accept living in a fog. Letting go means you stop trying to control the universe of outcomes. That you’re willing to accept whatever it gives you. It doesn’t mean you’re a weak, sniveling lump. There’s so much more strength and courage in surrender.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“That was curious, but then so was Ruthie. I turned the bracelet and read aloud, “‘Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10.’” I didn’t verbalize my confusion as to why my grandmother chose a Bible verse, but I guessed she expected that response. “For almost my entire life, I’ve held on to those words when I had nothing else to hold on to. They make me remember I’m not God, and I’m also not the boss of Him. They’re God’s way of telling me, ‘Sit down, Ruthie, be quiet.’ Mind you, I still have to take some personal initiative. The good news is it doesn’t all depend on me. When I run out of me, there’s God saying, ‘Chill out. I got this one.’ I’m not trying to push God on you. I just want to push Him in front of you. I wasted too many years thinking God had an A-list, and they were all partying on an island I’d never heard of and never been invited to. Took me a while to realize the invitation had been there all along. I just needed to open it.” She kissed me on my forehead. “I wanted you to have and be a part of something important to me.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“I knew how that felt. To have your skin sliced open by the jagged edge of something unexpected, your insides turned outside.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“If God were as compassionate as my mother believed Him to be, then He’d dole out tragedy on a rotating basis. You’d stand in line, then He’d reach into His bushel of adversity, hand one over, and you’d go to the back of the long stretch of mankind. You’d have time to deal with it, dress it in different clothes, ignore it, shove it someplace in your heart before your number was up again.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Thing is, you have to be happy with yourself before you can be happy with someone else. If you’re not, then you’re going to be blaming the wrong person when you’re miserable.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Now go love yourself enough to take control of all these things happening in your life.” CHAPTER 46 Tell me we’re auditioning for a new reality show, ‘How to Embarrass Your Daughter,’ because if we aren’t, we should be.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Before my trembling hands could drop the gift, I bolted. Kicked the door closed with my foot and threw the gift in the back of my Jeep. Whatever it was would have already broken by now, so there was no point in being careful. There was enough carelessness to go around for all of us.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Home was a place where you were supposed to feel safe, protected, accepted. Not the place where lies lurked and truth was held hostage. On”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone

“Every day since Wyatt died, a tsunami of grief assaulted me, sent me crashing into memories, and sucked my dreams away in its undertow. I didn’t know when or how I’d ever experience the soft swell of happiness and comfort without him.”
― Christa Allan, Since You've Been Gone