Just a Bit Confusing Quotes

“Ryan is straight,” James said.

“Everyone’s straight until they’re not,” Tristan said, looking bored. “Zach isn’t exactly gay, either. Attraction is either there or not, and labels have little to do with it.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Sometimes I think we were born in the wrong bodies, Jamie. Maybe we were. Maybe you were my girl in a previous life and my soul still remembers.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Hannah was his love, but she couldn't fill the place in his heart that had been occupied ever since one pale, ridiculous posh boy had imprinted on him like a baby duck and started following him around.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“From: James Grayson

To: Luke Whitford

Dec 12



I sucked him off again.



From: Luke Whitford

To: James Grayson

Dec 12



What? Details, mate! Were you drunk again?



From: James Grayson

To: Luke Whitford

Dec 12



We weren’t drunk. It was a normal evening. We were just hanging out, played some video games, had a pizza—you know, all the normal things. And then…then I was on my knees again.

Honestly, I don’t know how it happened! He didn’t say a word. We looked at each other and I just dropped to my knees in front of him. And he let me. He let me, Luke! I know we should have talked first, should have said something, but I couldn’t. I was scared to freak him out. I could feel how tense he was. He just stared at me hard, his face totally impossible to read. So I went for it. Fuck, it was the hottest thing I’ve ever done. Now I understand why people say that sex is better with someone you love. I’d never understood those people who raved about sucking dick, but Jesus, I could spend days sucking Ryan’s. And he got really rough, you know. Like, he fucked my mouth, not just passively allowed me to blow him.



From: Luke Whitford

To: James Grayson

Dec 12



Okaaay. Let’s pretend this isn’t awkward at all and I’m not turned on. What happened after that?

You couldn’t have passed out again. You weren’t drunk this time.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“A brittle laugh left his lips. “That’s exactly why I can’t be late. See you later, guys.” He strode toward the door briskly, hoping Ryan would leave it alone.

But of course he didn’t. Ryan caught up with him outside before James could reach his car.

“Jamie!”

Suppressing a sigh, James put on a neutral face and turned to Ryan. “I’m really running late—”

“Listen to me, you git,” Ryan said, his eyes dark and hard. “I’m not sure what’s going on in that head of yours lately, but don’t do anything stupid, okay? Don’t agree to Arthur ’s plans only because you think you have to.” Ryan lifted his hands to cradle James’s face. Jamie went still, his heart hammering as Ryan looked him in the eye intently. “You deserve better. You deserve marrying someone you’re crazy about. Someone who would love you for being you—not for your money or your family name, but because you’re the best person I know.” Ryan smiled at him crookedly. “Being in love is pretty fucking great, actually. You deserve to find your Hannah.”

Jamie wondered if it would actually hurt more if Ryan stuck a knife in his gut and twisted it slowly. He thought he smiled. He hoped he was smiling. His face hurt, so he must be.

He said, “Sure I will. Later, mate.” He was surprised by how absolutely normal his voice sounded.

He smiled again and turned away.

He walked to his car.

He got in.

He closed the door.

He put his hands on the steering wheel.

His throat worked as he tried to swallow the painful lump in his throat. He couldn’t. A terrible, choked sound came from his throat. His chest began to heave. He pressed his hands to his eyes and breathed in, breathed out.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“I love you,” he whispered, because sometimes the urge to say it became too much. Sometimes he needed to say it, even if there was no one to hear him. Even if there was no one to say it back.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“He wanted to fuck Jamie’s mouth, so Ryan did, eyeing greedily Jamie’s blissful face as he pushed his cock in and out. He wanted to come in him. He wanted to come inside Jamie, fill his mouth with his come and force Jamie to eat it— Growling,”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“You’re not a good one, mind you. Your technique needs work. You’re overeager.” Ryan smirked a little. “I get it—who wouldn’t be overeager to kiss me?”

Finally, he got the reaction he wanted: Jamie rolled his eyes, though his face was still red from embarrassment. “Fuck off.”

Still smirking lazily, Ryan leaned back against the couch, stretching his arm along the back. “Is that how you talk to your best mate who’s about to offer you to practice on him?”

Jamie blinked a few times, looking adorably bewildered. “You’re joking.”

Ryan met his gaze steadily. “Nope. I promise not to laugh at you and just tell you if you’re doing something wrong.”

Jamie just stared at him.

“Hurry up before I change my mind,” Ryan said.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“In other circumstances, if Jamie hadn’t been so miserable, Ryan would have laughed. Jamie rarely got so pissed that he lost the thread of the conversation. “Yes, you are.” Cradling Jamie’s face, he brushed his lips against Jamie’s forehead. “Everything will be fine, you’ll see.” He kissed Jamie’s temple.

Jamie shuddered. “Don’t. Not now. I can’t—not now.”

Frowning, Ryan pulled back to look at his friend.

Jamie was staring at him oddly, his lips parted and curled in half a grimace, his eyes gleaming with desperation. “I—” he said before suddenly lunging forward and closing the distance between their mouths.

For a moment, Ryan’s alcohol-fogged brain couldn’t understand what was going on.

Jamie was kissing him.

Jamie was kissing him. Or at least trying to, his lips clumsy and awkward but desperate and needy—so needy it was weirding Ryan out.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“I don’t give a fuck what people say,” Ryan said. “I want a good cuddle after this sucky day.” He smiled at the unintentional rhyme and opened his arms. “Come here, Jamie bear.”

Rolling his eyes but grinning, Jamie walked over and all but flopped on top of Ryan. “You’re still such a big baby,” Jamie said, resting his cheek against Ryan’s shoulder. “If your brothers knew you still use me as your teddy bear when you have a shitty day, they’d never let you live it down.”

“You would never tell them,” Ryan said, wrapping his arms around Jamie tightly and closing his eyes as the tension that had been gathering in his body over the last month somehow ebbed gently away from him. “You’d never tell them, because I’m your favorite person in the world.”

Jamie just sighed, burrowing his face into his neck. He didn’t say anything. But he didn’t deny it, either.

“Don’t do it again,” Ryan said, opening his eyes and putting a hand on Jamie’s nape. “Okay?”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“You're the reason I feel like shit and the only one who can make me feel better.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Jamie. God, I want you.” His hands were already parting Jamie’s thighs and stroking them impatiently. He wanted—needed—to put himself inside him, the urgency of that need threatening to swallow him up. “Okay,”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“He wanted to have him, needed to put himself on him, in him, crawl his way inside, brand him, love him, use him, take care of him, own him, cram all of him into Jamie— Jamie”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Don’t you see how much you’ve fucked me up already? You’re the only thing I want. I feel like a limb torn from you. Yours, yours, yours. “Don’t”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“He didn’t even notice Ryan take his boxers off; he realized that he was naked only when Ryan spread his legs and stopped to stare at Jamie’s groin. Panting,”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“He was weak for Ryan, always had been and always would be, but he was much weaker without Ryan. Sighing,”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“He couldn’t look away from the pale curve of Jamie’s spine. From the two dimples just above the swell of Jamie’s ass. From the tiny pink hole between Jamie’s pale, lush cheeks. He felt like a bloody pervert every time he looked at the picture. This time was no exception, but he wasn’t looking away. He never could. He licked his dry lips, looking at Jamie’s hole.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Ryan grimaced, angry with himself. Jamie, Jamie, Jamie. Could he spend two bloody minutes without thinking about Jamie? He had never noticed how much time he spent thinking about him until he consciously tried to stop. The problem was, when he actually managed to stop the intrusive thoughts, he found himself short-tempered, distracted, and feeling generally shitty. It was probably unhealthy as hell, but that was how it was. “Ryan?”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“When the tears came, they brought no relief. Fifteen years of friendship and love, gone. Just like that. An”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“The fucked up part is, I get off on it—on how wrong it is. I get off on fucking your mouth because it feels wrong to dirty you up, and because—because there’s a part of me that wants to own you.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“But Jamie was moaning around his cock, that shameless look of pure bliss on his face, and Ryan wanted to fuck his mouth again. So he did.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“After fourteen seconds, Ryan said, “I want you. Come here.” James breathed out, the tight knot in his stomach loosening a bit. “Are you still at the house?” “Yes,” Ryan said and hung up. It”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“I won’t let you down,” he whispered into the darkness of the room. He’d find a solution. He would do his damnedest to fix everything. By any means necessary.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Because, inexplicably, the answer was yes. “Why”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“If James were a girl, would he be your girlfriend? Hannah’s”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Ryan knew he was one greedy bastard when it came to Jamie: he always wanted to know everything about him, his every thought and every emotion. It”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Jamie wanted him. Jamie was in love with him. Jamie was miserable because of that. Because of him. Ryan”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“His forehead creased, he watched Jamie sleep as the nagging feeling in his gut became stronger and stronger.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Again,” Ryan said. “But this time take note of what I’m doing. Slowly.” He smiled. “Okay?” Jamie nodded, licked his moist bottom lip and parted his lips, waiting to be kissed. The sight was the weirdest fucking thing Ryan had seen in his life. Trying to shake the feeling off, he leaned in and pressed their lips together again.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing

“Watch and learn.” Trying not to think too much about the fact that it was Jamie, he fit their mouths together and started kissing him, making sure to make it slow and thorough, so Jamie could see how it was done. Except Jamie completely ruined it, his mouth turning overeager and needy again. Before Ryan could process what was happening, Jamie’s tongue was in his mouth and then Jamie was sucking on Ryan’s tongue greedily, making those desperate little sounds again.”
― Alessandra Hazard, Just a Bit Confusing