Lost in His Eyes Quotes

“Off in the distance, the clouds seemed to part to make way for a commercial jet. People on board were getting excited. They were probably coming home. What feeling could match that? I thought.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“So you think I’ll be all right?’ ‘You’ll be fine. Everything will be fine.’ ‘As it could be?’ ‘It’s always as it could be. Don’t look for perfection. Look for—’ ‘Survival with a touch of pleasure, a touch of happiness?’ ‘It’s all anyone can expect.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Did this happen because of something I did or said?’ ‘No, nothing specific. If I had to give an answer, it’s everything.’ ‘Everything?’ ‘Everything about my life, Ronnie. Being with him makes me feel better about myself. I’m sorry. That’s how it is.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“How easy this is going to be, I thought. Why did it take me so long to realize it? I had cut that string long ago. My husband and my daughter lived in their own worlds and really didn’t want me intruding in them. Ronnie and I had a paint-by-numbers marriage now, and I had a paint-by-numbers relationship with my daughter. We moved from one thing to another like the hands of a clock, ticking to do this, ticking to do that, all of it programed and expected. If I threatened or even thought to make any changes, it set off alarms. What would happen to our family clock? It would stop. Could you live with that?”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Kelly stepped out from behind him and my father showed more emotion. Parents always give their grandchildren more affection, I thought. It’s as if when their children reach a certain age, that display has to be constricted and put into storage until the grandchildren come along and it can be revived.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I thought about some of those happier moments in my marriage. I certainly had them. How could I deny the day Kelly was born and the way that had strengthened my relationship with Ronnie, for example? Of course, it did feel as if we were different people then. Time, experiences, events, even other people change us, and if we don’t change together, we grow into strangers. Maybe that was all it was; it was no one’s fault. Guilt has no place in evolution. It’s beside the point.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Looks authentic,’ Lancaster said. ‘Like the people who live here really belong here and want to be here. In too many places I’ve been, people seem cast in a temporary role. Everyone’s trying out a new persona. The whole country’s got attention deficit disorder. That’s why the moving van business is booming. I have no doubt that once the average lifespan becomes one hundred, marriage will disappear entirely as an institution. Or else marriage licenses will be good for only twenty years.’ ‘It’s practically like that now.’ ‘For you?’ ‘Maybe,’ I said.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“don’t say “pity” again,’ I warned. ‘I blame myself for who I am and where I am, and that includes friends and family.’ He laughed. ‘Maybe you are too hard on yourself. You can’t underestimate the power of coincidence and fate. They have a lot to do with who and what you are. Look at us. If I hadn’t been standing in that spot in the supermarket and you weren’t distracted, we might never have met.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“If one found ways to explain her husband’s infidelity or disrespect for her, all the others would give her a pass, knowing full well they were either in similar circumstances or anticipating that they would soon be.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I didn’t want to look at him through rose-colored glasses, knowing all along that what I was seeing could very well be untrue, and yet when I was with him, I welcomed my refusal to search for and find flaws. The irony was I was often sickened by the way my girlfriends made excuses for their husbands, even the way I sometimes made excuses for Ronnie. Of course, we were really making excuses for ourselves, finding ways not to look like fools.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Maybe, ironically, marriages lasted longer because people who really weren’t made for each other could put off that realization for years with the distraction. Maybe that was a bad thing because prolonging a bad marriage was worse than cutting it off at the knees.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Did he ever love me as much as he loved all this? I didn’t suspect him of going to porn on his computer. I never saw any evidence of that. It didn’t take away his sexual energy exactly; it took away his attention and the energy to conduct any family socializing. It certainly dampened down romance.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“it often occurred to me that there was a time before family radios and television when people had nothing but themselves for entertainment. The point I thought we missed about all that was that in those days – the ‘olden days’, as Ronnie puts it – there was little to take you out of your home. Television did more because there was little left to the imagination. You were captured totally in someone else’s imagination, whether it was the set designs, the settings chosen or the lighting and sound to accompany the actors. Computers wired you to the outside world in a much more complete way. It was something you did alone. Ronnie tried to get me to go into his office to witness what he was seeing, but for the most part he was oblivious to everything and everyone else around him. He was truly gone for those hours he spent reading emails, sending them, copying and pasting in quotes and jokes, and reading the blogs he favored.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“It’s as if you’ve already crossed over; the devil has won your soul. Additional stains don’t matter. And yet this wasn’t true for me. The idea of fudging my time and squeezing out more money for the work I had done hadn’t even occurred to me. Did that mean I had successfully rationalized my adultery, that somehow what I was doing was not immoral and therefore I still had a lily-white soul to protect?”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I was going to say I don’t like to cheat anyone. I almost said it wasn’t in my DNA, but I hesitated. It suddenly occurred to me that one major transgression affects every small indiscretion you might contemplate and makes it seem less important and too little to challenge your conscience. It’s not a license to steal exactly, but everything, no matter how contradictory to who and what you were before, suddenly becomes insignificant.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I think you stop trusting your husband or your lover when you realize he has practically memorized each and every one of your reactions to anything and everything. He’s like a taxicab driver who knows every turn, every bump in the road, and knows when to slow down and when to speed up. Surprise diminishes and diminishes until it’s almost non-existent. You know he knows how you will react and plans for it. You no longer believe in what you see in his face and hear in his words. He’s drifted away under the camouflage woven out of your own reactions and words.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“How deeply we can wound our own children,’ I muttered, more to myself, but he perked up. ‘Feel no fear about it. I spoke to these two kids. I think they wrote off both their parents years ago. Kids sense things sooner than we expect. They’re even good at hiding how much they know from us. I’m sure you remember things when you were a child.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“the envy of my bridesmaids and girlfriends. How pretty I was and how handsome Ronnie looked. Even Sherlock Holmes couldn’t detect a single doubt, a single threat, an iota of anything ominous. Was everything in life an illusion?”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Take a holiday?’ ‘Find a reason to spend time on your own; only you won’t be on your own. There must be one place you’d like to go. It doesn’t have to be far away. There’s a lot of static around you here. You need a chance to pause, take some deep breaths, so you can think better about the things you’re doing and the things you want.’ ‘Maybe,”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I was just thinking about all the rules and regulations we pick up like lice during our lives. When you’re a child, there are so many no-nos. Then you become more mature and you get the false impression, live under the illusion, that restrictions diminish. For a while you forget all the new ones. You can drive, but now there are all those traffic regulations. You can stay out later, but there are rules about alcohol and drugs and curfews. You are suddenly aware of other things like jay walking, littering, defacing property, cutting in front of people in lines, obeying the rules your bank imposes and your college imposes. Then, of course, once you’re really on your own, earning your own keep, there are the pages and pages of IRS codes. You have all that beside the Ten Commandments and spools of new edicts related to civil and criminal law.’ ‘So?’ ‘And then you get married, save up enough money to have a mortgage and a house in a place like that,’ I said, nodding at the development, ‘and are handed a booklet of CC and Rs, the covenants, conditions and restrictions associated with your homeowners’ association. It never stops. Even after your dead. Did you know there is a mileage restriction relating to how far you have to be taken to have your ashes dumped at sea?’ ‘You forgot the rules your own body imposes on you, like when to eat and drink, what to eat and drink, and when to seek sexual intercourse. And sleep. I always forget sleep.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Surely, I thought, there is something magical about someone who was on the same wavelength as you were, feeling the way you felt when you felt it. Anticipating correctly was the best love song any girl could want. It meant you cared enough to think hard about someone else beside yourself. And I’m sorry, but you could count on your fingers how many like that you knew your whole life.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I never liked the way time went by when I worked for Sebastian. It wasn’t that it dragged; it was completely the opposite. I would look up and discover that I had been swimming for hours and had never lifted my head up long enough to realize it. If anything, it contradicted the expression, Time flies when you’re having fun. Time just evaporated”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Book shelves were on the right-hand wall and a framed print of Christina’s World on the left. ‘Mr Saunders found that picture in a closet and thought it might be something you’d like.’ ‘It was always in here,’ I said, looking at it. I had often stared at it and wondered about the woman in the picture and how much like her I often felt. ‘I do like it. I like it very much.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Was that faith or arrogance and selfishness? Should I dislike him for wanting us to ride on smooth waters, or should I rock the boat and condemn him for not seeing me as more of an individual? Many of the women I knew did that, some so vigorously that they defeated their own marriages.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“he simply and probably naively assumed so much about me, about us. Right now, it didn’t occur to him that I wouldn’t agree with his political thoughts, or that I would dislike to make something he enjoyed eating. It was as if he believed that I would always trim and cut around my thoughts and feelings so they would slip in comfortably beside his own. He was confident that my surrender or compromise was part of that famous female DNA”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“After all, you make so many compromises. You find yourself laughing at things you might never have laughed at previously. Your opinions about so many things change, and not because your husband dominates you so much as because you seek a smoother, less complicated direction to take or accept. Specifically, your thoughts about sex, about what you would do, change. You might eat foods you never really liked, go to places you’d rather avoid, and tolerate friends you wouldn’t spend five minutes with before you were married. You would do this all in the name of love and marriage,”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“I’m getting very good at this deception thing, I thought. Is that something I want to be good at? Wasn’t I much more transparent these past years? How many times do we change in a lifetime? I wondered. Am I anything like the woman I was just before I met Ronnie and immediately afterward? Did a serious relationship and the marriage that followed take me off the path I had been following and expose me to feelings and thoughts I never had even imagined? If your surroundings, the people you love and who love you, and everything else you’re exposed to and experience shape and influence you before you were married, why can’t all that be true afterward?”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“would have mentioned what years of being with one person really means. You get used to each other’s little peculiarities and habits. Maybe this was why we had so many similar thoughts simultaneously. We could anticipate so much about each other. And yet what did it really mean that, after all these years, Ronnie didn’t have an inkling about my affair? Was it his indifference to me or my ability to disguise and hide the truth from him? Rarely did I ever show interest in any other man. I even hesitated to point out a good-looking actor. It was as if I thought I might open up some floodgate and all my doubts and complaints would come pouring out in the open.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Little lies are unfortunately what keeps most marriages together these days. I’m just exhausted from the effort to come up with new ones, I guess.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense

“Nothing or no one demands you be elsewhere before that happens?’ ‘No. Envy me?’ ‘Who wouldn’t?’ ‘Oh, there are old home bodies, even your age or less, who couldn’t care less about traveling and shedding responsibilities. You know that. Not everyone has that hunger, that thirst and desire to experience and consume from the wonderful smorgasbord waiting out there.”
― Andrew Neiderman, Lost in His Eyes: Romantic suspense