Fake Missed Connections Quotes

“This is what I am trying to say: I was in no condition to have paid closer attention to plot development. There were no flashbulb memories pausing time, creating a mental photograph of how sunlight fell in a pattern on the parquet floor, individual facial expressions, what I was wearing, or the particular geometry of where bodies were located in the apartment's floor plan. I've requested all the mental and visual impressions in the library of my brain, like an interlibrary-loan—The Book of Devastating Phone Calls & Their Aftermath (153.1BFL)—only to learn the book has been pulled from the shelf and remaindered. I have only the fragments of conversations, the scrapbooks, the digital debris, and the patchwork of letters saved. I revisit and reread them. I look at them over and over, hoping if I stare at them long enough it becomes something like being there again, like remembering, and thus, once relived innumerable times, becomes solidly the stuff of the past. The phone was ringing. The phone rang. I answered it.”
― Brett Fletcher Lauer, Fake Missed Connections