Our Numbered Days Quotes

“How to kill yourself without hurting anyone.

Don't.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“You will never be more wrong than the first time you say "I love you." You will mean it, sure, but you'll still be lying.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“Things that I Hope Are True about Heaven

That the radio always plays what would have been your favourite songs. That there's always coffee if you want it. That you're there. That it's real.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“When you're dumb enough for long enough, you're gonna meet someone too smart to love you, and they're gonna love you anyway, and its gonna go so poorly.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“...and I am sitting in this park watching an old couple almost cry together, and I want this to be the most important thing I do all year.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“but it would be nice to say It’s raining only on my head rather than I have a chemical imbalance in my brain or I just remembered that someone I love will die before I do.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“This is what it's like to say goodnight and mean goodbye.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“whatever you are feeling right now, there is a mathematical certainty that someone is feeling that exact thing. This is not to say you aren’t special. This is to say thank god you aren’t special.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I am not saying you will find the meaning of life in other people. I am saying that other people are the life to which you provide the meaning.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“Now I just think about who else is kissing her. I can't breathe because he only kisses her once. He doesn't care if its perfect.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I'm not going to tell you how to live your life, but maybe you should listen to your feet when they tell you to run the fuck away. Maybe you should get out of here, then get out some more.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I will whisper your name
From the cracks in the canyon rocks

And you will know that this is heaven,
Knowing that someone will always remember

Your irises and where you hid your love
Letters and why you could never speak

In anything but short sentences.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I have been wondering, mostly, if love and sanity are the same thing. When I say I am in love I am also saying the world makes sense to me right now”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“Depression wasn’t an endless grey sky, it was no sky at all. I’ve got to go somewhere. I’ve got to go. It”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“You will remind yourself, she will remind you, you will remind each other, that this is for the best, that you are physically incapable of loving one another,”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I will have fun like my life depends on it cause it does.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I wanna thank you for making all the love songs mean something again”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I can pinpoint the session that brought me back to the world. That session cost $75. $75 is two weeks of groceries. It's a month of bus fare. It's not even a school years worth of new shoes. It took weeks of $75 to get to the one saved my life. We both had parents that believed us when we said we weren't OK, but mine could afford to do something about it. I wonder how many kids like Joey wanted to die and were unlucky enough to actually pull it off. How many of those kids have someone who cared about them but also had to pay rent? I'm so lucky that right now i'm not describing Joey's funeral.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I think that the genes for being an artist and mentally ill aren’t just related, they are the same gene, but try telling that to a bill collector. We”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“You no longer think of suicide as a house you will build one day.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“Hope is a thing I drag out of storage
when I am done thinking; hope answers
my phone; hope breaks my furniture
and helps me rebuild before the next
party; hope turns into more hope
unless it does not in which case
it turns into more or less less
than what I had hoped for; hope
sinks; hope drinks with me and against
me; hope is my ride home; hope is
asleep, I'm asleep, dear god, I can't
stop sleeping.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reason for remaining ashore.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“god bless the shape your head leaves in my pillow; god bless your insatiable hair; god bless you, though the hour is late, for you have come to me at last.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I am just carbon and bad timing”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“since I’m still here, I have to act as though I meant to be here. Once it snowed, and it wasn’t that I felt great, because I felt awful, but awful is better than nothing. Depression wasn’t an endless grey sky, it was no sky at all. I’ve got to go somewhere. I’ve”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I wanna go away until I'm gone. It takes so much less energy to not exist than it does to exist and get burned.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I have been wondering, mostly, if love and sanity are the same thing. When I say I am in love I am also saying the world makes sense to me right now.

I know that love is not the same as knowing everything, but because she is gone, because about her there are unknowns that will now remain unknowable, it is important to list what is mine to list:

She likes hazelnut in her coffee; she is a better driver when the transmission is manual; though she couldn't name it, her favorite color is Bakelite seafoam green; she loved me once, though it wasn't for very long, though it was distracted, though it shouldn't have happened, one she loved me”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“She imagines me full of dead things, re-consuming that which I am trying to grow out of.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“I am not helping because I have already assumed so much, and I would rather let her suffer than be wrong.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days

“Maybe things happen for a reason but that reason is stupid... I am a flat tire and you are a pothole full of lug nuts. I am a pile of bricks and you are holding a sledgehammer, which is to say I would not exist without you.”
― Neil Hilborn, Our Numbered Days