Being Small Quotes

“in truth it’s himself that makes this hard for him. When he’s most himself, he’s most aware of what’s happening, where he’s been and where he’s going, how he has to get there. He knows when he’s been raving, he knows when he’s been lost entirely, he may perhaps have some ghost memory of each. And he knows there will be more of each to come, and less of this. Ultimately he knows there will be nothing, and that for him is worse than either. He can lie there and savour his own dying, feel the slow determined tread of it, chart every separate step he’s yet to take. This terrifies him, but not so much as what follows, that logical final step, the being dead.”
― Chaz Brenchley, Being Small