Buddy's Quotes

“For a while, I decided to worship God. It was a God I arrived at through a method of logical deduction. If there is a God, what would he be like? I asked. He would be a real person in my life, I reasoned, adhering to a literally anthropomorphic view of the sacred. He would be beautiful and I would desire him. Since a friend of mine named Trevor had all those attributes, I concluded that Trev was God. Having settled on him, I then further deduced God's other characteristics from Trevor's behaviour. He was narcissistic, perplexed, rather dispassionate, flawed in various ways, etc. So was God. At night I prayed to him by name. My entreaties seemed about as effective as other people's prayers to their Gods. And with Trevor there was the added advantage that if my prayers failed to reach him, I could always phone.”
― Stan Persky, Buddy's: Meditations on Desire

“In Paris, long ago, a French boy my own age, about nineteen, a hustler, whom I had asked to sleep with me, replied, "… par condition." I have ever since retained the sense in which all of life is presented to us "on condition." We slept together many times.”
― Stan Persky, Buddy's: Meditations on Desire