Still Quotes

“And I know I dont want to go back." "Back to what?" I meet his eyes. "The nothing I had before.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I choose you. You hear me?” He nods”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I was going to be nice. You want it rough?” I tease. “Want to get wrecked by your captain?” He groans”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I havent moved once. Not because Im tired. Not because Im comfortable. Because the second I move”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“How much I like this version anyway. Even with all the walls still up. I just need to get better at climbing”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I have him back. Just like that. Just that simple and that hard and that worth it. I have him back.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“Thats it. I want him to look at me the way he used to and I have no idea what to do with that because Ive spent my entire life being very good at identifying exactly what I want and then finding the most efficient way to not let myself have it.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I want the infuriating version. The relentless one. The one who never once let me pretend he didnt exist”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“He tastes like peppermint. Warm and wet and unmistakably his—his saliva”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“He reaches into his mouth. Unhurried. Intimate. His teeth scrape plastic as he works his mouthguard free”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“Hes bluffing. But if he wants to play chicken — fine. I invented this game.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“Rhys keeps pushing at every locked door in me like he’s convinced one of them will open eventually. He brings something out in me I dont even recognize.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I learned that wanting things hurt.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“Be nothing anyone can see. Be still. Be still. Be still.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I was eleven years old and I was learning the most important thing anyone would ever teach me. Want nothing. Show nothing.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I learned the rule so completely that eventually it stopped feeling like a rule. It just felt like who I was.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I keep telling myself he’s just another problem to survive. But he smiles at me one time and I suddenly forget every good decision I’ve ever made. Maybe we can find a happy medium. Put hockey between us like a wall and figure out how to coexist without wanting to kill each other. Everyone’s tired of our shit anyway. I know the team feels it every time we’re in the same room. But I cannot”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I guess I have an authority kink. Or maybe I just like the idea of him telling me what to do in that deep voice while looking at me like I’m two seconds from ruining his entire life.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“Theres a stillness here that exists nowhere else in my life. This is the one place I have never had to explain myself. It has never misread me. It has never let me down.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still

“I don’t know when Jamie Nash became the person my entire mood depends on. I just know it’s pathetic.”
― Carmen Wilder, Still