Invisible Quotes

“I know things have been hard for you. I'm not saying that's an excuse. There's never an excuse for doing the wrong thing, but sometimes people need a little more support if they've been through some tough times.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“If I start to write down my feelings, isn't that the same as writing down my problems? Won't it be dangerous? What if then I feel like I need to tell someone my problems? Will they be angry? Will they leave? "It's just a book", I tell myself. "It's just a book and a book can't leave me. A book can't decide who it wants to be with. The worst that can happen is I don't do it anymore, right? I'll give it a try.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“You have this thing called a life. It’s only you that gets to live it and you only get to do it one time.”
― Cecily Paterson, Invisible

“Corn flakes or Weetbix?”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“I’m scared of being seen. I’m scared of doing anything. I’m scared of losing another person who loves me. I’d rather just drift.”
― Cecily Paterson, Invisible

“I’ll keep your secret. I’ll hold it close. Because no one’s ever given me a secret before.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“He tries to put a huge spoon of ice cream in my mouth but I refuse to let him and keep it shut until finally he lets me handle the spoon myself. I gulp a mouthful down making tiny noises because I have swallowed too much and it is freezing my teeth. He is still laughing at me while he waits until my face returns to normal—I have tears in my eyes from the cold—and then says, “So, what do you think? Come on, say you like it.” “It’s… well, it’s intense,” I say. I’m surprising myself. There are unexpected words coming out of my mouth. The ice cream has given me a sudden burst of confidence. “It’s muddy. It’s complicated.” Liam looks at me with a great big grin. “Muddy? Intense? Complicated?” he says. He laughs again. “I’m very surprised you don’t like it. Because if it’s intense, muddy and complicated, it’s exactly like you.” I don’t know what to say. Is he serious, or is this a joke? I just can’t tell so I look at him for a few seconds. Eventually I sign what do you mean? and I see he’s worried. “Oh, no, it’s not bad,” he says. He’s definitely backpedalling. He thinks he has upset me and now he is trying to reassure me. “You know, muddy, intense and complicated in a good way, right?” he says smiling. Now he’s making a joke.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“Apparently, if you have depression you feel sad all the time or you get angry or you have trouble doing things. You run out of energy a lot.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“And I think that if I started to tell someone how I felt I’d never be able to stop so it’s easier just to not feel anything because that way there’s no issue.”
― Cecily Paterson, Invisible

“When I’m invisible I don’t have to feel anything. The pain and grief and fear goes away. I go numb and quiet.”
― Cecily Paterson, Invisible

“feeling of when you think you can never stop laughing and you think if you don't stop, you'll burst in half and that makes you laugh even more, thinking about bursting and then when you stop, you are so tired but it is such a happy tired.”
― Cecily Paterson, Invisible

“This time it’s after science”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“invisible”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“A little voice in my head is telling me to give up. Go back inside, it says. This is too hard and you can’t do it. My body wants to obey it, out of habit probably. My muscles are not used to all this work. But there is another voice in my head that says to keep going. You can get some help. You can do it. My brain is following this one. I don’t want to give up so I push the first voice to the back where I can’t hear it any more.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“I sit in my hammock chair in my room at home and take out my hearing aid, start a gentle rock and slowly close my eyes. I begin to melt until I am no one. I don’t exist. No one can see me.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“20”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“going”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“Book”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“I’m gripping the edges of my chair. The metal feels even colder than it should against my fingertips. It’s something else to concentrate on, apart from the words that seem to be piling up over my head.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“I dig the weeds and talk to my plants. “You grow,” I say. Fiercely, in a whisper. “You keep growing,” I tell them. “You’ll be okay. You’ll be strong. You’ll be free. You’ll be beautiful.” And I know I’m really talking to myself but that’s okay.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“Make the right choice and get yourself on track now or you will end up who knows where. You have this thing called a life. It’s only you that gets to live it and you only get to do it one time.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“me.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“stained”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“I have a way of becoming invisible.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“Don’t tell anyone your problems”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“amazed”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“because they have to write with their hand all twisted around so that they don’t get ink all over their arms.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“feel like things are going to be okay. In the meantime I’ve got a garden to look after and a friend to talk to and a boyfriend to eat ice cream with and a journal to write in. I’ve been invisible for a long time but now I’m starting to become a real person. Maybe I’m like a seed in the ground, finding its way up to the sunlight.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“bipolar disorder.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible

“Me: (Still trying to stall for time) Isn’t there someone else you can ask? Miss Fraser: Of course there is. There is always someone else I can ask. Quite honestly, a dozen girls would bring me flowers every day for the next two weeks if they thought they could have the part. But I’m thinking about the production and making it the best play possible. I have seen you do the part, and I know you can do it very well.”
― Cecily Anne Paterson, Invisible