Mother Doll Quotes

“We had the bombs and we were going to throw them. We had already decided that we were the kind of people who did this and so we became the kind of people who did this and so we did this.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“In the absence of the horror, the horror only seemed to grow louder. Before, I knew at least how to escape from it with noise.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“Regret was sort of a pointless emotion. To dwell on loss was not practical. Better let that loss seed itself in your organs.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“Let this want roil and roil inside of her, but wall it in somewhere. And maybe eventually she could learn to want things so quietly that she might not even know when she was suffering.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“Stop cowering. Stop wasting your life with your games, your waffling. All you know is how to want!”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“The underdogs were monsters too. To be human is to be monstrous. No matter how much you sweeten it with your false humility and avoidance.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“There are people who know how to exist only as the underdog. And they deflect any offers that would change this.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“There is a perversity in this, no? Chasing and retreating as soon as you are being granted what you want?”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“After Hanna died, happy moments became too painful. I would do something usually to ruin them, otherwise it was unbearable. Maybe this is just growing up?”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“It’s dumb to want things,” he continued. “Getting them is impossible. It’s never satisfying in the way that you want it to be. It never is. Desire is its own snake. Insatiable by definition . . .”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“We’re howling now. This all seems terribly sad. Who hasn’t held a doll in their lap, imagining it was a real girl, and who hasn’t held a real girl, imagining she was a doll? Who among us hasn’t known what it’s like to be abandoned by the only person who loved us? To have nobody. For eternity to be in a crowd but to always be lonely.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll

“You want advice? Stop being a coward. Innocence is an illusion. Blood is always on your hands. Pretending otherwise is stupid and cruel.”
― Katya Apekina, Mother Doll