Suicide Blonde Quotes

“The problem with being a modern woman, I thought, as the front door swung wide, is that you have to pretend to be stronger than you are.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“You’ll see, there are a million ways to kill off the soft parts of yourself.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“When you love a woman, you love yourself, and it's terrible really, how it seems perfectly possible to swallow the other. With a man you want to join, you want your ribs to connect like handcuffs. But with a woman if you swallow, she becomes you.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“Everything was new, now I’m a junkie, I seem to need more severe doses of experience to feel anything.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“Relationships are like wall paper patterns, you think your moving forward but your always caught in your own obsessions.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“What is love but a nostalgia for someones history? Their boyhood haunts and sullen adolescence, their teenage trips cross-country and fights with their fathers and especially their old lovers?”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“I thought of happy endings, how novelists usually flinched. To admit your characters are doomed means you are too.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“I know the girl is right because the snake is in me, knotted around my intestines, hanging off my ribs, snuggled like a lover around my black heart. "I love you," I said, addressing the snake, Madison, Bell, Kevin, Pig, my mother, my past lives and the new lover speeding toward me at this very moment. I wondered if it mattered whether you loved one person or another. Weren't lovers interchangeable when you thought back about them? Maybe that was true in the future too. What I really loved was the note. I always loved odd things: the blue curacao bottle, the wet asphalt, my own insipid fear.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“The story of Adam and Eve has less to do with evil than the cosmic human sadness that relationships are never straightforward, never pure enough.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“For awhile, staring at my paper bag of clothes, my freaked-out eyes in the mirror behind the bar, I convinced myself I would go back to Bell. He was the only man that ever made me feel in life instead of just a spectator, and if he did that by fear and pain, it was still better then when I looked numbly at some man on the couch thinking, I will leave you soon.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“I knew people want most what they pretend to hate, that it takes courage to say what you really want.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“Nature is most beautiful in its movement: wind, water, the sinking sun.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde

“My life fans out like a string of paper dolls. I am malleable, chameleonlike. Each life eats the last until I'm a Russian doll, containing ten women of decreasing size. Across the desert, the midlands, creeping back into the South. To Virginia where you can feel the water in the pages of a book and the light rain makes the leaves tender as skin. I will plant a rose garden and I will wait in that garden for the flick of the snake's tongue that will change me again.”
― Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde