Troubled Quotes

“Plainly, being poor doesn’t have the same effect as living in chaos.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“Focusing on "representation" rather than helping the downtrodden is another luxury belief.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“Many affluent people now promote lifestyles that are harmful to the less fortunate. Meanwhile, they are not only insulated from the fallout; they often profit from it.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“This was a milestone in my life. From then on, reading became a source of comfort for me. I began reading books all the time, and the teacher let me borrow whatever I wanted, but I still seldom paid attention in school. I read in class instead of doing whatever assignment or activity we were supposed to be doing. Reading was an escape—from my memories, from my foster families, from my feelings.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“Mom's friends were worried that their son isn't talking as much as other six-year-olds. They, like many parents, were concerned with how "smart" their kid is. "Should we be reading to him more?" they asked me. I thought of how lonely I felt trying to teach myself how to read as a foster kid. "Yeah," I replied. "But not because it will expand his vocabulary. Read to him because it will remind him that you love him.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“I considered the differences in how fast people are expected to grow up based on how much money their families have. A twenty-year-old at an expensive college is viewed as not much more than a kid. A twenty-year-old in the military is trusted to carry a weapon, repair multimillion-dollar equipment, and make life-and-death decisions.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“I've come to believe that upward social mobility shouldn't be our priority as a society. Rather, upward mobility should be the side effect of far more important things: family, stability, and emotional security for children. Even if upward mobility were the primary goal, a safe and secure family would help achieve it more than anything else. Conventional badges of success do not repair the effects of a volatile upbringing.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“While military life was demanding, my efforts paid off. Many people say that to do something difficult and worthwhile, they need to be “motivated.” Or that the reason they are not sticking to their goals is because they “lack motivation.” But the military taught me that people don’t need motivation; they need self-discipline. Motivation is just a feeling. Self-discipline is: “I’m going to do this regardless of how I feel.” Seldom do people relish doing something hard. Often, what divides successful from unsuccessful people is doing what you don’t feel motivated to do. Back in basic training, our instructor announced that there are only two reasons new recruits don’t fulfill their duties: “Either you don’t know what’s expected of you, or you don’t care to do it. That’s it.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“When I told him about my life, the 87-year-old professor gently replied, “You were forged in a fire.".”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“Successful people tell the world they got lucky, then tell their loved ones about the importance of hard work and sacrifice. Critics of successful people tell the world those successful people got lucky, and then tell their loved ones about the importance of hard work and sacrifice.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“For behaviors and habits to be stable and predictable, one’s environment needs to be stable and predictable.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“During my first year at Cambridge, I began preparing notes for this book. I had plenty of time to think about what a weird childhood I had--the flashbulb memories of living in a car with my birth mother and seeing her arrested in our cramped apartment, getting dragged away to foster homes, the drama and heartbreak after being adopted, and all the rest. In his bestselling book The Body Keeps the Score, psychiatrist Bessel van der Kolk wrote, "Sooner or later most [trauma] survivors...come up with what many of them call their 'cover story' that offers some explanation for their symptoms and behavior for public consumption. These stories, however, rarely capture the inner truth of the experience. It is enormously difficult to organize one's traumatic experiences into a coherent account--a narrative with a beginning, middle, and an end."
With this book, I have attempted to accomplish such as a task as honestly as I can.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“The military asked that I put myself in the service of something higher than myself. I had a seriousness of purpose that I lacked before and experienced a new feeling about who I was and who I could be in life. But it didn't fundamentally "transform" me. It just provided conditions that prevented me from acting out the way I had as a kid.
Enlisting provided a stable setting that allowed me to mature enough to start reflecting on my life and what I had gone through...”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“I began writing this book in 2020, a little over a year after arriving as a PhD student at Cambridge University. At this point, I have lived a life that my seventeen-year-old self would have found both absurd and hilarious.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“People don't need motivation; they need self-discipline. Motivation is just a feeling. Self-discipline is: 'I'm going to do this regardless of how I feel.' Seldom do people relish doing something hard. Often, what divides successful from unsuccessful people is doing what you don't feel motivated to do.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“You should keep your expectations in line with reality. If you view the military as a job, you will be miserable. It's not a job, it's a lot more than that. As long as you wear that uniform, it is your entire existence. The demands of this 'job' will look large in just about every decision you make in what you think of as your 'personal life.' If you view the military as a club, you're also going to have a hard time. It's not some special affiliation you get to brag about—that mind-set will hold you back. And if you're easily offended, you're going to be miserable, too. You need a thick skin. But if you see the military as a system to obtain as much experience, training, and knowledge as possible in order to advance in your life, then you'll be fine. Understand that the air force is going to ask a lot from you. Just remember that you can get a lot in return from it as well.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“The luxury belief class claims that the unhappiness associated with certain behaviors and choices primarily stems from the negative social judgments they elicit, rather than the behaviors and choices themselves. But, in fact, negative social judgments often serve as guardrails to deter detrimental decisions that lead to unhappiness. In order to avoid misery, we have to admit that certain actions and choices are actually in and of themselves undesirable—single parenthood, obesity, substance abuse, crime, and so on—and not simply in need of normalization.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“Children with stressful lives tend to get their adult teeth earlier, reach puberty sooner, and undergo accelerated changes in their brain structure”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“George Orwell: “The thought of not being poor made me very patriotic.” But I was nervous about enlisting.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“writing felt like entering the kind of tranquil paradise I’d only dreamed about as a kid,”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“In the past, people displayed their membership in the upper class with their material accoutrements. But today, luxury goods are more accessible than before. This is a problem for the affluent, who still want to broadcast their high social position. But they have come up with a clever solution. The affluent have decoupled social status from goods and reattached it to beliefs.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“My environments suppressed and exposed different aspects of my nature. My childhood experiences inhibited my potential and fostered harmful instincts. Occasionally, though, my latent potential would shine through even amid all that disorder. The military, in contrast, inhibited my destructive impulses and cultivated my good qualities. But now, the darkness within me sought expression. Being in a bad environment doesn’t eliminate all the good parts of you, and being in a good environment doesn’t eliminate all the bad parts of you. Who is the “real” me? I felt beset by contradictions and had no answers.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class

“My professional life was going well, but my inner life was deteriorating. When I’d initially left home, I did very little questioning or searching with regard to my life. I was in “flight” mode, grateful to have left home, and found something to occupy me. For the first couple of years, I’d been untroubled by difficult questions about the meaning of my past and the direction of my future. Lately, though, I’d been reappraising everything I’d gone through.”
― Rob Henderson, Troubled: A Memoir of Foster Care, Family, and Social Class