Digging the Vein Quotes

“No more junk talk, no more lies. No more mornings in the hospital getting bad blood drained out of me. No more doctors trying to analyse what makes me a drug addict. No more futile attempts at trying to control my heroin use. No more defending myself when I know I am practically indefensible. No more police using me as practice. No more ODs, no more losses. No more trying to take an intellectual position on my heroin addiction when it takes more than it gives. No more dope-sick mornings, no more slow suicide, no more pain without end.
No more AA. No more NA. No more mind control. No more being a victim, no more looking for reasons in childhood, in God in anything but what exists in HERE. No more admitting I am powerless.
Down the dusty Los Angeles sidewalks, down the urine stained London back alleys … there goes the connection fading into the crowd like a 1960’s Polaroid.
“Business…?”
“Whachoo need…?”
“Chiva…?”
― Tony O'Neill, Digging the Vein

“I needed to know that Death was here, in the room, and that I was too fast, too young, and too smart for him.”
― Tony O'Neill, Digging the Vein

“The heroin I bought last night was so-so at best, but I dumped a lot into my wake up shot and managed to find a decent vein in my ankle. The dope flooded my bloodstream and I could feel normality returning: my aching muscles relaxed, the ice unthawed around my bones, my jangling nerves subsisted. I looked at my watch; it was 6:30 a. m. Another perfect fucking day had begun.”
― Tony O'Neill, Digging the Vein

“Slowly, I felt my mood begin to brighten. It was unperceivable at first, but as I noticed a pleasant sensation starting in the base of my skull, sending shivers of pleasure throughout my body, I”
― Tony O'Neill, Digging the Vein