Program 13 Quotes

“Sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“You love them, even though they're gone. In order to love you need to live, if you give up on life you can no longer love. You'd no longer have the capability to love them.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“My past is trying to catch up to me and I must continue run from it. It's the only way I can live.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“How could you explain to someone that sometimes it was not worth living in the past when the past was all that they had worth living for?”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“I closed my eyes, seeking a moment of peace but finding none. Behind my eyelids, an entirely new nightmare was waiting. This wasn’t another haunting memory. This was a new form of torture.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“Just as I allowed them to live in my mind, I allowed them to die.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“No matter how hard he tried, he just couldn’t let them go. He wanted to start fresh, but there is no denying the heart what it longs for – especially when it longs for home.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“He’s safe, I repeated to myself over and over again. But even I knew it wasn’t the truth. For now he was safe, but they’d find him. Eventually they’d find him, they always do. I was supposed to protect him. I was supposed to keep him alive. Instead I’d brought him directly into the lion’s pit.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“I knew it was a terrible idea. We were supposed to be leaving our past behind us, not fully embracing it. But she was a part of my past that I wanted to hold onto. She was my only reminder of Tommy, my only remaining connection. I couldn’t let that die, not yet.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“The sun’s rays reflected beautifully upon the water, creating a magnificent glistening effect over the waves. The pier to the left was docking ships, while on the right, a ferry took off into the open waters. It was a beautiful sight to watch; how small everything looked in something as big as the ocean. It reminded me of people, how we were just a small part of what made up the world. Our numbers might be large, but we were not alone in this world. We were insignificant to nature.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“Does it truly make a difference how I’m alive?” I asked him.
But he didn’t answer.
I walked over to where Hayden stood, resting my hand on his. I looked at the photo he held before making my way along the wall. Every photo was of our family. The family that existed before the accident. The family that existed before I was struck by a car. I wasn’t supposed to remember it, but I did. When they exported my memories and my life from my body, every trace of the accident was supposed to be erased. But it still remained.
You can’t erase death.
That was what Hayden was trying to tell me. No matter how much he wanted to forget, he couldn’t.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13