Night Beach Quotes

“I don't want romance and stolen kisses and sweetness and hand holding. I want something so big it's like two planets colliding, with an aftershock that I feel for the rest of my life.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“You cant rely on anybody being around for you, because things change.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Ultimately, he’s never been within reach. That’s the key to why I’m so caught up on him – I know that. I’m obsessed. And what feeds an obsession is not getting what you want.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Art is a kind of rapture. Surrender enough, you find truth.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“It’s not love. It’s an obsession. And it’s not art. It’s a way of seeing things. A way to see the things that aren’t there.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“He's kissing me, quick desperate kisses, like I'm something he needs to live; and I'm kissing him back, crazy with the ache I feel for him, trying to kiss him better, trying to fix him. I'm touching his face, feeling the roughness of his beard, the wet of his tears, feeling the tremors passing through his body, hearing his ragged breathing. And each kiss is a failure. A failed attempt to escape from all that's happening. And I only know this when he slows, drawing it out, letting me taste regret, letting things linger. He pulls away, and I'm saying "Don't, don't, don't", trying to bring him back, kissing his face. But I've lost him.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“This is what I love about life. The UP. You can be completely down and out, and in the next you feel like you're flying, for no reason at all.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“I draw the light with my fingers, and it seems to spark in response. And it’s then that the magic of this place, this night beach, gets to me. Because that sparkling thing could be anything. A fallen star, a little buried sun. I feel like I’m a kid again. When there was so much to see. So much wonder.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“It was the first time I realized that your mind can’t always be trusted. If it can’t make sense of what you’re seeing, it will come up with an alternative scenario for you.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“As if the ocean cares that it’s been zoned residential – what the sea wants, the sea shall have.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Kind of hard to forget a bruise exists when you’re prodding at it.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“And we’re both emotionally limping, because having old wounds re-opened is never fun, no matter how beneficial it might be.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Yet, in the middle of all this grief, I realize there’s a part of me clinical enough to want to document it. People talk about artists like they’re these sensitive, delicate beings who don’t use the toilet, but I think the real ones are something else. They’re users. They’re mercenaries. They’re hunters. And they don’t let anything – other people, or themselves – get in the way of it.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“The grief I’m feeling is heavy and raw, pressing down on me, breaking my chest apart. It hurts to even touch the edges of it. It’s to do with Grandad being gone. The loss of him, and the loss of me. I heard someone say once that grandparents are the guardians of our childhoods, and for the first time I really understand what that means.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“At seventeen, I’m in-between. Staring at the carnival from a distance. Not sure if I want to go forward and become an adult; liking the view too much to turn back.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“After a while I get the feeling that Mum and Brian aren’t home. Kane either. It’s because the house is making so much noise; ticking and creaking as it stretches in the sun. Acting like a house does when nobody’s around to see it. It must have forgotten about me.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“But of course when you've got it bad for somebody, you aren't really sane. You're a stalker and a groupie combined, and you do things even you don't want to try and understand.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“I am sick of playing games where you’re not allowed to show how you feel. I don’t have to play anymore. He just won.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“That’s the thing. You think you’ve got balls, but when it comes down to it, you find out you’d do anything to save yourself.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“I’m already moving towards the kitchen as I say this, because one thing I’ve learned is that you never, ever enter negotiations with a three-and-a-half-year old. It’s like negotiating with terrorists.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“If there’s one thing I can’t stand, it’s the wounded male ego. It’s as though Hollywood thinks I’ve got some choice in whether I like him or not. As if. I can’t change who I am.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Anna’s one of those people who get fired up about injustices in the world; quick to quiver with rage because other people don’t ignite like she does.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“I feel like I’m somebody else tonight.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“It’s always about the money. And the problem with that is: if the people who love you are always weighing up what you cost, then you’re never really sure who’s got your back.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“It’s funny to me that power comes from sitting behind a desk. It should come from spending yourself.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“This is its ancient soul, the quiet place, away from all its beats and rhythms. And my mind is unable to comprehend the sheer expanse of it. It’s as though I’ve suddenly blinked and found myself standing on a tightrope strung between two skyscrapers. I am paralysed by awe. The feeling you get when confronted by something infinite and inevitable and indifferent to you.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“And what really struck me was that the woman still meant so much to Grandad after all of those years. She burned in his memory in a way that she never would have if he’d left his wife and sons for her. It got me thinking about how sometimes it’s the people we don’t get to have who stay with us the most.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Without wonder, you are dead and I am older. The girl in the mirror looks devastated. Like someone really has pushed a brick through her ribcage.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“Oh, stop it, I tell myself. Stop looking for links and meaning and explanations. What did De Chirico say? The world is a museum of strangeness.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach

“In normal families, unbroken families, the mother and the father are like two hands cupped together, and held by those hands are the children. In my family, the hands have pulled apart and the children have been dropped. If one parent isn’t looking after you, they just assume the other one is. You find out you don’t really belong anywhere.”
― Kirsty Eagar, Night Beach