The Way I Am Now Quotes

“I think you love the person you knew back then, the person you believe I can become again one day. But that’s not the same as loving me the way I am now.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“It was like she was the only thing in color to me, everything else in my life felt so grey.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“But maybe we can only accept the love we think we deserve.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“As I look around at everyone in their little groups, I wonder if they're all pretending to be having fun or if they are really are and there's something wrong with me that I can't be that person anymore.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“Her laugh is a drug.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“This is you. It keeps playing in my head. This is me. It's inevitable.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“Because I am this, and someone needs to protect him from this, even if it has to be me.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“I’m just saying you can stop carrying this weird torch you have for her. You’re gonna set yourself on fire with it.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“Like someone drew a face on me and carved it into my skin. Scooped out my insides. Just hollowed out, everything scraped clean. And then lit a fire in me and left me out in the cold.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“jack-o’-lantern. You know?” “Okay,” he says, nodding. “Like someone drew a face on me and carved it into my skin. Scooped out my insides. Just hollowed out, everything scraped clean. And then lit a fire in me and left me out in the cold. And I just…”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“But there's something else following right behind. It's a sinking feeling that settles into my stomach in the place where those butterflies were fluttering earlier, like someone just threw a bunch of gravel on top of them, smothering out their fire, destroying their wings.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“He starts laughing but not in a ha-ha-funny way; in an angry, I-have-the-moral-high-ground way that makes me want to open the door and jump out of the moving vehicle just to not be sitting next to him anymore.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now

“I don’t even feel like I’m the same person anymore. Back then I felt like I had no choice but to accept whatever kind of affection was offered to me even if it wasn’t what I wanted or needed. But maybe we can only accept the love we think we deserve.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“He doesn’t need to say a word for me to know it’s him. The sigh in his breath might as well be a fingerprint.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“His lawyer asked me if I ever said no.” I raise my head. “What do you mean?” “Like he assumed I was given a choice. Like I could choose to say yes or no. And I couldn’t explain that there was nothing to say yes or no to—there wasn’t a chance to say it—but he just kept interrupting me.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“Because it wouldn’t be someone like Josh—there’s no one like Josh—it would be Josh.”
― Amber Smith, The Way I Am Now

“And so it continued for what feels like hours. Pointless questions mixed in with important ones, always with right or didn't you tacked on to the end. Dissecting all my sentences into smaller and smaller fragments until they barely make sense anymore.”
― Amber Smith, The way I am now