Giving Up the Ghost Quotes

“You come to this place, mid-life. You don’t know how you got here, but suddenly you’re staring fifty in the face. When you turn and look back down the years, you glimpse the ghosts of other lives you might have led; all houses are haunted. The wraiths and phantoms creep under your carpets and between the warp and weft of fabric, they lurk in wardrobes and lie flat under drawer-liners. You think of the children you might have had but didn’t. When the midwife says, ‘It’s a boy,’ where does the girl go? When you think you’re pregnant, and you’re not, what happens to the child that has already formed in your mind? You keep it filed in a drawer of your consciousness, like a short story that never worked after the opening lines.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“The story of my own childhood is a complicated sentence that I am always trying to finish, to finish and put behind me. It resists finishing, and partly this is because words are not enough; my early world was synaesthesic, and I am haunted by the ghosts of my own sense impressions, which re-emerge when I try to write, and shiver between the lines.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“Concentrate on sharpening your memory and peeling your sensibility. Cut every page you write by at least one third. Stop constructing those piffling little similes of yours. Work out what it is you want to say. Then say it in the most direct and vigorous way you can. Eat meat. Drink blook. Give up your social life and don't think you can have friends. Rise in the quiet hours of the night and prick your fingertips and use the blood for ink; that will cure you of persiflage!”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“[Children's] lives start long before birth, long before conception, and if they are aborted or miscarried or simply fail to materialise at all, they become ghosts in our lives...The unborn, whether they're named or not, whether or not they're acknowledged, have a way of insisting: a way of making their presence felt.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“I said to my mother, Henry VII is interesting. No he's not, my mother said.”
― Hilary Mantel, GIVING UP THE GHOST: A MEMOIR

“I think, in retrospect, that it would have been better if I had denied that I had pains in my legs, if I had taken it all back, or brightly said that I was well now. But because I didn’t, the whole business began to spiral out of control. I still believed that honesty was the best policy; but the brute fact was, I was an invalid now, and I wasn’t entitled to a policy, not a policy of my own. I feared that if I didn’t tell the strict truth, my integrity would be eroded; I would have nothing then, no place to stand. The more I said that I had a physical illness, the more they said I had a mental illness. The more I questioned the nature, the reality of the mental illness, the more I was found to be in denial, deluded. I was confused; when I spoke of my confusion, my speech turned into a symptom. No one ventured a diagnosis: not out loud. It was in the nature of educated young women, it was believed, to be hysterical, neurotic, difficult, and out of control, and the object was to get them back under control, not by helping them examine their lives, or fix their practical problems—in my case, silverfish, sulking family, poverty, cold—but by giving them drugs which would make them indifferent to their mental pain—and in my case, indifferent to physical pain too.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“I wanted books like a vampire wants blood.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“I was (an am) unsure about how I am related to my old self, or to myself from year to year. The hormonal profile of an individual determines much of the manifest personality. If you skew the endocrine system,you loose the pathways to the self. When endocrine patterns change it alters the way you think and feel. One shift in the pattern tends to trip another.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“History's what people are trying to hide from you, not what they're trying to show you. You search for it in the same way you sift through a landfill: for evidence of what people want to bury.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“The story of my own childhood is a complicated sentence that I am always trying to finish, to finish and put behind me. It resists finishing, and partly this is because words are not enough; my early world was synesthetic, and I am haunted by the ghosts of my own sense impressions, which reemerge when I try to write, and shiver between the lines.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“God walked with me, I thought he did. You would imagine that I asked Him to show Himself and put an end to the events at Brosscroft: the slammings of doors in the night, the great gusts of wind that roared through the rooms. But my idea of God was different. He was not a magician and should not be treated in that way; should not be asked to alter things and fix things, like some plumber or carpenter, like my grandad with his tools rolled in their canvas cradles. I had come to my own understanding of grace, the seeping channel between persons and God: the slow, green, and silted canal, between a person and the god inside them. Every sense is graceful, an agent of grace: touch, smell, taste. The grace of music is not for a child who says, “What?” My mother never plays the piano now, my father seldom; Jack is never seen to sit down to it, no doubt because he’s C of E. And I can’t carry a tune; I’m told brutally about this. I can’t sing fa sol la ti do without singing flat. You can pray for grace, but it is a thing that creeps in unexpectedly, like a draft. It is a thing you can’t plan for. By not asking for it, you get it. For one year, I carried this knowledge, and carried a simple space for God inside me: a jagged space surrounded by light, a waiting space cut out of my solar plexus. I subsisted in this watchful waiting, a readiness. But what came wasn’t God at all. Sometimes you come to a thing you can’t write. You’ve”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“When my mother sees the scraps, she assumes a look of scorn. Scorn is a beautiful word. He curls his bearded lip in scorn. Bastion is a beautiful word, as is citadel, vaunt and joust. Anyone who hesitates near me, these days, has to read me a chapter of 'King Arthur and the Knights of the Round Table'. I am considering adding knight errant to the profession of railway guard. Knight errant means knight wanderer, but I also think it means knight who has made a mistake. Mistakes are made all the time, it is a human thing, in a knight, to slip up once in a while.
I am waiting to change into a boy. When I am four this will occur.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“Trust your reader, stop patronising your reader, give your reader credit for being smart as you at least.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“It was just that I was unsuited to being a child.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“Truth isn't pretty, I thought, and the pursuit of it doesn't make pretty people. Truth isn't elegant; that'sjust mathematicians' sentimentality. Truth is squalid and full of blots, and you can only find it in the acumulation of dusty and broken facts, in the cellars and sewers of the human mind. History is what people hide from you, not what they're trying to show you. You search for it in the same way you sift through a landfill: for evidence of what people want to bury.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost

“But do I take my own advice? Not a bit. Persiflage is my nom de guerre. (Don’t use foreign expressions; it’s elitist.) I stray away from the beaten path of plain”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost: A Memoir

“All your house are haunted by the person you might have been.”
― Hilary Mantel, Giving Up the Ghost