Hamartia Quotes

“But him…well, he was my inevitability. He was when it started. When everything else ended. Everything I was before. He was the moon and the stars and everything in-between and all I wanted to do was worship at his feet. The band, my girlfriend, my dad, everything that I thought was important to me, just ceased to exist the moment I first saw him. I’m not proud of that. But it’s what it was. There was before him and after him, two sides, and I am two completely separate people on each.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“What did it mean that the first moment I saw him everything inside me changed color and flavor, while he didn’t even remember it?”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I draw my eyes over his face, eyes, cheek, nose, lips, chin. Every part of him is flawless. Like a painting or a sculpture. I saw Michelangelo’s David once and I think Lee Jaehyun is more beautiful than that slab of perfectly-shaped marble.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I love you too,” I whisper to no one. “In another life I would have chosen you.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I want his name somewhere on me. He deserves that. Even if this flickers out and dies, as all things that burn as brightly as this do, he deserves that.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I do not want to be your friend, Raphael. I do not want to watch sunrises and think of you. I do not want to close my eyes to go to sleep and see the image of your mouth when you smile. I do not want to spend a five-hour flight daydreaming about your eyes or the sound of your voice or the way you say my name. I do not want it. And yet… all of these things I have done just today.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“Dangsin-eun na-ege neomu keun sangcheoleul jul geos-ibnida. an geulae?” Jae whispers.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“Dangsin-eun na-ege neomu keun sangcheoleul jul geos-ibnida. an geulae?”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“He turns in his chair to look at me, a smile so beautiful and sad on his face it almost brings tears to my eyes. “Love cannot bloom hidden away in the shadows, Raphael. Eventually it will wither and die. It would not be fair to offer you a love like that, one that is half in the dark and dying from the start. You deserve something better than what I can give you.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“It sounds like a love song. But not about New York. About something New York possesses tonight. One single perfect thing that no other city on earth has. And he’s asleep in the next room.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“Had I seriously been thinking that I could get him out of my system by fucking him once? I’m a bigger clown than I thought possible. I need air. I need to walk and think and then maybe speak to a priest or an exorcist or something because this guy is simmering in my veins like demonic possession.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I saw Michelangelo’s David once and I think Lee Jaehyun is more beautiful than that slab of perfectly-shaped marble.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“If you change your mind, I will not be offended.” “I won’t.” “There is some time between now and then.” “I think you underestimate how much I want you. How long I’ve wanted this.” There’s a slight quake of nervousness maybe in his voice when he says, “You were able to control yourself last night.” “I barely breathed the entire time,” I say. “It’s kinda hard to think about first base when you’re just trying to keep yourself alive.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“So, what I am going to say now is because of this: because I do not want there to be any misunderstandings between us.” He takes a deep breath, building up to something. “I do not want to be your friend, Raphael. I do not want to watch sunrises and think of you. I do not want to close my eyes to go to sleep and see the image of your mouth when you smile. I do not want to spend a five-hour flight daydreaming about your eyes or the sound of your voice or the way you say my name. I do not want it. And yet… all of these things I have done just today.” “Jaeh…” I start but he’s not finished. “If you come to see me in New York, then I will assume—based on what you have said—that you wish for there to be something between us which is not friendship. I will also assume, even though you did not confirm it when I asked you, that you wish to fuck me.” “Ask me again,” I reply before he can say anything else. “Ask me again if I want to fuck you, Jaehyun.” I can hear his breathing change, soft and almost imperceptible, to something quicker, a little heavier. “Do you want to fuck me?” “Yes.” I breathe the word out, the lightness of its release making my head spin. I close my eyes to re-center myself because I feel fit to splinter apart from the confession. “I want that. I want…” I open my eyes and stare out at the flickering lights of downtown LA, sparks of amber that bleed together the longer I look at them. “I want you. I don’t know what this is but I haven’t been able to think in a straight line since I saw you and it’s driving me insane. I want…to touch you, breathe you in, kiss you, taste you, and I don’t know what any of it means. It’s…it’s like I’m fucking obsessed. I feel obsessed. Have you ever been obsessed with anything? Ever wanted something so much it makes every breath you have to take without it, pointless?”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“I’m not gay, I know I’m not.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“There’s no risk of being outed or caught or anything else that goes with maintaining any kind of romantic entanglement while being an idol.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“we’d had a go at their music but who didn’t? Their fashion sense. Again, who didn’t? At their make-up. There was metro-sexual and there was…well, them.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia

“Fucking hell. Thank fuck they don’t speak English.”
― Scarlett Drake, Hamartia