Search History Quotes

“In some ways she represented the version of myself I envisaged when I imagined myself free from all my flaws; a person who was loved unconditionally. That was, of course, an image I’d built based on a foundation of assumptions. It was not the whole truth. I’d held Emily up as this idea of perfection, and yet, she’d also been rejected and hurt. That was evidence enough for me to conclude that none of this was personal. There was nothing, no carving of the self, no removal of perceived flaws, that would truly protect me from rejection.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“I learned from that experience that sometimes we hurt people in our pursuit of happiness,’ he continued, now crossing over the boundary of the question. ‘And I do believe that sometimes that’s unavoidable. I don’t think anyone should be held back from pursuing a life that makes them happy. But I also believe that good communication can spare feelings. It’s in being vulnerable and sharing our deepest fears, our regrets, our desires and sadness, that we can leave less destruction in our wake.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“There was nothing, no carving of the self, no removal of perceived flaws, that would truly protect me from rejection.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“The universe works in mysterious ways, but there is one way in which it never fails to be obvious: It will give you what you want when you no longer desperately want it.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“I knew that a social media account is a form of performance; a profile, feed, or grid can't contain all the nuances of a personality. I also knew that I had a tendency to extract what I could and then fill in the gaps with my own fantasies. Later I am often left having to deconstruct the version I'd created of someone in order to make room for the version that actually exists. I'm often disappointed. I'm sure we all are.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“Silence is rejection in slow motion. It’s an injury sustained from a blow that was never dealt. There is, in theory, nothing to recover from.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“following the plotlines with ease. In moments of stillness, when I’d usually mindlessly scroll, I opted instead to stare out of windows or to close my eyes. I went for slow, meandering walks, stopping to touch the trunks of trees, or to marvel at dew-covered leaves, or to smile directly into the faces of flowers. I was unbearably smug.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“In the days after that act, it was as though I’d stumbled upon the not-so-secret secret to happiness. I felt clearheaded and liberated, my mind no longer clouded with the irrelevant details of other people’s lives. I was excited by the abundance of spare time and the dizzying potential it held. I watched TV series and movies with a new heightened focus, appreciating the physical acting”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“Mostly I enjoyed having no identity. I liked the way the algorithm was perplexed by me; it kept offering up random content in a desperate attempt to figure out what I wanted, so I could be lured back into the fold, but I followed no one,”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“I considered the option, my cursor blinking at me in anticipation like a ticking clock.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“The only things worth salvaging from the wreckage were lessons I could take into the future and the most valuable lessons were the ones that could inform me on my own behavior.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“What I needed was radical self-acceptance; to meet myself exactly where I was, not where I thought I had to be. Otherwise I'd likely be in transit forever, waiting for the moment when I finally arrived at the belief that I was worthy of being loved.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“Predictably, I had found myself grappling with the post-breakup allure of transformation; the familiar sense that the conclusion of one chapter presented the opportunity to reemerge into the next as someone different, better; the elusive version of myself who was perfect and therefore successful and loved unconditionally and never hurt.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“I looked at this small and unsuspecting symbol, burdened with the task of summarizing her entire existence so neatly and so crudely, and a sense of hopelessness descended on me at the thought that, no matter what happened in my life, it would one day be summarized by a dash.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“Silence is rejection in slow motion. It's an injury sustained from a blow that was never dealt. There is, in theory, nothing to recover from.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“But our lives are an accumulation of mostly mundane details, and those details eventually form a whole and interesting image, like the way pixels form a photo.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History

“It was a piece of information I should have learned the first time I saw his eyes catch sunlight, not through a screen. These little moments of discovery were being stripped away from us by our online presences, but I accepted that they were a sacrifice; a necessary loss in order to gain useful information.”
― Amy Taylor, Search History