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“That finding someone to love you romantically is actually kind of easy”

“There’s a whole cocktail of brain chemicals at work telling you to obsess over this other person. Plus a rulebook for relationships we’ve all been given since infancy. Friendship doesn’t have any of that, and so finding a person who will hold you down for no reason is rare.”

“It was Nia.
Hey Angie, it said. I was hoping to stop by the apartment tonight. Can we please talk?”

Been through that. It when my “friend” decided to move funny, I let her and seized all communication, because why you being weird to me?

“Girl, at least figure out if you’re exclusive,” she said. “I realize you didn’t get your dating reps in, so you might just not know, but the rules of millennial courtship basically state that if you don’t explicitly agree on that, he’s gonna be fucking other people.”

And she not wrong

Kind of bratty and rude.
An obstinate, headstrong, girl. And not the good kind.

“Who didn’t want a relationship? Hadn’t we all grown up watching the same romantic comedies, reading the same young adult vampire novels, and dreaming of the day that another person looked us in the eyes and declared themselves ours?”

“Maybe when we were still sitting on a bench in Lydia’s garden, doing a deep dive into each other’s vulnerabilities, invoking fate had felt appropriate. Now, it seemed like a joke. To think, for a time I’d thought Ricky was different. Special. Emotionally intelligent and accessible in a way that was rare and precious in a guy.”

I’m hurt for you.

“I think you’re thinking too hard about this. Love isn’t a test. There aren’t right answers.
You can’t get into anyone’s head and puzzle together whether or not they can love you, or you can love them. You just have
to jump in blind and accept the chance that you might get hurt.”