ruby’s Reviews > My Year of Rest and Relaxation > Status Update

"Reva was a magnet for my angst. she sucked it right out of me. i was a Zen Buddhist monk when she was around. i was above fear, above desire, above worldly concerns in general. i could live in the now in her company. i had no past or present. no thoughts. i was too evolved for all her jibber-jabber. and too cool. Reva could get angry, impassioned, depressed, ecstatic. i wouldn't. i refused to."

"pondering this all down in Reva's black room under her sad, pilly sheets, i felt nothing. i could think of feelings, emotions, but i couldn't bring them up in me. i couldn't even locate where my emotions came from. my brain? it made no sense. irritation was what i knew best -- a heaviness on my chest, a vibration in my neck like my head was revving up before it would rocket off my body."