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“Gael.” His voice is a sad whisper now. His hands glide up over my shoulders, settling on either side of my neck. 
“And why does it only all feel better when I’m around you?”

Goddammit Jordan! Tell him already 😭😭😭

WHAT IS HAPPENING 😭😭😭😭😭

“Don’t confuse my lack of experience for lack of understanding. I know what I want. I know who I am. I know what matters, and I know what doesn’t. The only thing that you need to know is, being attracted to other men doesn’t change a single thing, because it’s only ever been you.”

What do you have to say now, Jordan? 😔

“You think I fucking care about labels?” I scoff, fuming at his repeated dismissal. “Why do you do this? Why do you always try to talk me out of my feelings for you? Why don’t you fucking believe me?”

The house. The husband. The kids.
In a perfect world, I could be the one to give those things to him.

Ugh… 😭😭😭

There isn’t a card or sheet of wrapping paper I haven’t kept since we started exchanging presents when we both turned eighteen. In a box that sits neatly in my closet, just like my feelings for him, is a lifetime of Gael and Jordan moments. 

😭❤️

Because all the money and security in the world mean nothing if you don’t have anyone to share them with. 

So true!