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“Recovery is made of words, and words have all these rules. How can anything so limited touch something as big as whatever the fuck Higher Power is? How can it get rid of the big ball of rot inside me? It feels like this giant sponge sucking away anything in the world that’s supposed to feel good. What words can’t touch that?” Exasperated, Cyrus snorted at himself. “I don’t know. I’m sorry”
— Mar 02, 2024 02:41AM
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Julia
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Our romance had ended years before; she got comfortable, I got restless.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:06AM
Julia
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You think there's some nobility in being above anger? Anger is a kind of fear. And fear saved you. ... You can put a saddle on anger, Cyrus. ..
I just think about it a logt The ugliness of anger. I don't disagree that it can be harnessed. But it's so irredeemably ugly.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:06AM
I just think about it a logt The ugliness of anger. I don't disagree that it can be harnessed. But it's so irredeemably ugly.
Julia
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And then my friend told me about Orkideh and her installation and I thought I could write a book about it. Martyrdom. The gulf between my mother making nothing from her death and this artist in Brooklyn making something. These two opposite Iranian women... except it was the same person.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:06AM
Julia
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Painting saved me, but I can't say I loved painting, I painted because I needed to. What I really loved, what I love, is having-painted. That was the high.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:05AM
Julia
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2/2 It's easy for people who have sacrificed nothing to rationalize their own ordinariness by calling me lucky. But I sacrificed my entire life; I sold it to the abyss. And the abyss gave me art.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:05AM
Julia
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1/2 It happened like it does for anyone, fame. Bullshit luck disguised as a lifetime of hard work. But also vice versa. ...
88% Yes, the sheer dumb luck, as many have said, as I've said myself. To get such a change from a gallery, even a small one, is one in a million. To catch the attention of a Times critic as a nobody, with no connections, no experience. Impossible. ..
— Mar 17, 2024 05:05AM
88% Yes, the sheer dumb luck, as many have said, as I've said myself. To get such a change from a gallery, even a small one, is one in a million. To catch the attention of a Times critic as a nobody, with no connections, no experience. Impossible. ..
Julia
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Seneca said grief should last no longer than 7 years. Anything more was indulgent. Nazim Hikmet said 20th grief lasted at most a year. It dwindled like that. Maybe 21st century grief had gotten down to a fraction of that fraction, just a few hours before it was supplanted by necessity.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:05AM
Julia
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When asked about the difficulties of sculpture, Michelangelo said, "It is easy. You just chip away all the stone that isn't David"
— Mar 17, 2024 05:04AM
Julia
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That's when everything became supersaturated. One of those memories you can squeeze like a rag and watch details drip and pool.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:04AM
Julia
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Cyrus told me once you were the best-selling poet in America. A dead Persian poet! ..
Well, I don't know how Persian the me they read in America really is.
— Mar 17, 2024 05:04AM
Well, I don't know how Persian the me they read in America really is.
