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“In the past year of distancing myself, I felt like a swimmer coming up for air. I learned to trust the appearance of things.”

“I began to notice how she increasingly critiqued me, mostly with jabby comments about my body. Under Bonnie’s gaze, I became very thin. It was gradual until it was sudden. When I went home for Christmas, my mother couldn’t decide if she was pleased or alarmed.”
Oh i can write a whole book about this.

“The only way to separate yourself from a person like my mother is to embody her fears and insecurities about herself, to become as far removed from her idealized self-image as possible. Or, to be more specific: Go through an awkward Goth phase.”
Ok ya she gets meee

“We were considered petite by most standards, but Bonnie was thin by Chinese standards. Meaning that the differences between our bodies were only glaringly obvious in the eyes of immigrant mothers.”

when will daughters of immigrant mothers, who are so focused on their body image, ever rest?

“The door would open, the covers would lift, we wouldn’t speak. He would know that it was me. He would stroke my back until I fell asleep.”

so comforting

“Sometimes I have a hard time believing what happened to me. What he did. And seeing him again makes me realize that it happened. It actually happened.”

Hate this mf fuck u n ur sandwich Talkin about gettin a drink n the good times NAH D1E