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I fell down a hundred times, but without him, I don’t know that I would’ve gotten back up again. And last night, I’d been on the verge of shattering into a million pieces until I felt Theo’s arms around me, holding me together. I remembered the sound of his strong heart beating in my ear, and how afraid I was until he said, “I’m here.” And then I could sleep.

There was nothing about Theo that wasn’t solid and honest and fiercely loyal. I’d seen the same conviction in his eyes when he’d held Jonah’s hand through that awful biopsy. And now he was offering the same to me.


Teddy blows me away. I can’t believe how selfless he is. How his heart is so big, I will never know. What a beautiful soul he has.

10% in and my heart is shattering. My chest physically aches.
I cannot imagine this kind of grief, to have to endure it requires superhuman strength.


| Every night, I called one final thought into the deep darkness: Come back to me. And just before the dark consumed me, a whisper returned: My angel, let me go… |