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Once,not long before I went abroad,almost on the eve of my breaking off all relations with her,in fact,I went into her room and found her alone,at a little table,without any work in her hands,but deep in thought,resting her elbow on the table.It had hardly ever happened to her before to sit without work.At that time I had quite given up showing her affection.I succeeded in stealing in very quietly, on tiptoe, and..

— Dec 31, 2020 01:39AM

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MihaElla is on page 609 of 664

Go along.Much sense we have,the pair of us,but you… . Oh,you are one of my own kind!I wrote you a mad letter,& you agreed to come to tell me that 'you almost love me.' Yes,we are possessed by the same madness!Be always as mad,don't change,& we shall meet as friends—that I predict,that I swear!

And then I shall certainly love you, for I feel that even now!

— Dec 31, 2020 04:11AM

MihaElla is on page 538 of 664

The memory of our meetings is dear to me;the boy in you is very dear to me,& perhaps,too, that very sincerity …you know,I'm a very serious person,I’m one of the most serious & gloomy characters among modern women,let me tell you … ha—ha—ha! We'll have another talk some time,but now I'm not quite myself,I am upset &… I believe I'm a little hysterical.But,at last,at last,HE will let me,too, live in peace

— Dec 30, 2020 11:45PM

MihaElla is on page 526 of 664

once you pocket the money you'll get on and get on, and in ten years' time you will be such a millionaire that all Russia will resound with your fame, so you won't need a name then. Why, you can buy a title in Austria. And when you get married, keep her well in hand. They want a firm hand. If a woman's in love, she likes to feel a man's got a tight grip on her. Women like will in a man.

— Dec 30, 2020 11:14PM

MihaElla is on page 440 of 664

To be sure I knew that was it,peasant superstitions: 'If I take to my bed,' they say, 'ten to one I shan't get up,' that's what the peasants very often fear,& they would rather keep on their legs when they're ill than go to a hospital. As for you,Makar Ivanovitch, you're simply home-sick for freedom,& the open road— that's all that's the matter with you,you've got out of the habit of staying long in one place...

— Dec 30, 2020 12:39AM

MihaElla is on page 419 of 664

The vast majority of people don't know how to laugh at all. It is not a matter of knowing how,though: it's a gift and it cannot be cultivated.One can only cultivate it, perhaps,by training oneself to be different, by developing and improving and by struggling against the evil instincts of one's character:then a man's laugh might very likely change for the better. A man will sometimes give himself away completely...

— Dec 29, 2020 12:33PM

MihaElla is on page 361 of 664

We’re both stricken by the same Russian curse;you don't know what to do,& I don't know what to do.If a Russian deviates ever so little from the rut of routine laid down for him by tradition,at once he is at a loss what to do.While he's in the rut everything's clear;income,rank,position in society,a carriage,visits, a wife—but ever so little off it—& what am I?A leaf fluttering before the wind

— Dec 29, 2020 04:52AM

MihaElla is on page 322 of 664

That woman is what you were talking of this morning, 'living life,'?You said that living life is something so direct & simple,something that looks you so straight in the face,that its very directness & clearness make us unable to believe that it can be the very thing we're seeking so laboriously all our live.With ideas like that,you met the ideal woman & in perfection, in the ideal,you recognized 'all the vices'!

— Dec 28, 2020 09:31AM

MihaElla is on page 300 of 664

I can't endure your smile any longer! Why did I even in Moscow picture you as menacing,magnificent, using venomous drawing-room phrases? When I was coming here I dreamed of you all night in the train. The expression of your face is childish mischief and boundless good-nature—there! I have been marvelling at it all the time I've been coming to see you. Oh,you know how to look haughty and to crush one with a glance

— Dec 27, 2020 01:22PM

MihaElla is on page 257 of 664

Can it all be so materialistic?Can the modern world come to an end simply through finance

Oh,of course,I've only chosen one aspect of the picture,but that aspect is bound up with the whole by indissoluble bonds,so to speak

What's to be done

Oh dear,don't be in a hurry;it's not all coming so soon.In any case,to do nothing is always best,one's conscience is at rest anyway,knowing that one's had no share in anything

— Dec 27, 2020 10:17AM

MihaElla is on page 251 of 664

this kind of indecency is far more deeply rooted and widely spread than we imagine. The desire to lie with the object of giving pleasure to your neighbour one meets even in Russian society of the highest breeding, for we all suffer from this incontinence of our hearts. Only anecdotes of a different type are current among us; I must confess I belong to that indecent class myself,and I've suffered from it all my life

— Dec 27, 2020 09:45AM

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Dec 31, 2020 01:41AM

“...and suddenly embracing and kissing her… . She leapt up—and I shall never forget the rapture, the bliss in her eyes, and suddenly it was succeeded by a swift rush of colour, and her eyes flashed. Do you know what I read in those flashing eyes? 'You are kissing me as a charity—that's what it is!' She began sobbing hysterically, making the excuse that I had startled her, but even at the time it made me think. And, in fact, all such reminiscences are very dreary things, dear boy. It's like those PAINFUL scenes which you sometimes find in the works of great artists, which one remembers ever afterwards with pain;”

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