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When they have fetched Ganapathy they might as well come and fetch him too

Is that homosexuality? Is that the sum of it? Even if there is more to it than that it seems a puny activity compared with sex with a woman: quick, absent- minded, devoid of dread but also devoid of allure.

She has issued no reproofs, made no demands; she has even paid the abortionist herself. In fact, she has taught him a lesson on how to behave. As for him, he has emerged ignominiously, he cannot deny it. What help he has given her has been fainthearted and, worse, incompetent. He prays she will never tell the story to anyone.

Normal people, when they feel badness flare up within them, drink, swear, commit violence. Badness to them like a fever: they want it out of their system, they want to go back to being normal. But artists have to live with their fever, whatever its nature, good or bad. The fever is what makes them artists; the fever must be kept alive. That is why artists can never be wholly present to the world.