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Am I?

...........I only leave you in the dark because I don't want to hurt you. Or make you worry. But you do that anyway. ..........hm? Am I that readable?

Neither do I. ....I love you?

It's always nice to know that........dream-you seems to think otherwise.

Avi.. I'm so sorry..................................

For what..? I should be apologizing.....sorry I flipped out on him like that...

I ..... I think.. I... just...

God, I'm an asshole. I'm sorry, Kaylee. You can ignore me if you want.

I dumped him....... I think I did.... I don't know. Tears can't... so hurt.........

Kylie......this is.......probably my fault. I don't.......are you.....God. I shouldn't say anything, I know I've done enough, more than enough, but.............do you want me to do anything? I can jump off a cliff if you want....God knows I'll do it....

No, don't. I think I've seen it coming for a while. I just.. didn't have a solid reason to do it... besides me having wild... thoughts... about random... things... which... IthinkyouknowexactlywhoIamthinkingaboutbecauseItalkaboutheralmostallthetime

.............yeah, I know. I saw it in you. The way you talked about...the way your eyes lit up whenever...yeah, I know. At least, I had a hunch. And I recognized it in you because....I...went through the same thing too. With...with someone else.

But, uh. Anyway.......are you....well, you obviously aren't okay....but....will you deal...? I know I've said this millions of times and it probably means nothing now, but......I've got your back....always.

Now I don't know what to freaking do. I love her.. so much. I wish she was literally right next to me. He's a nice guy, I know he is. I just don't know... what I'm doing. I know it's stupid, to have online relationships... but I can't help it... they're the only people that I can go to. It makes me happy though, to hear that my eyes really do light up when I talk about her... because that is really what she does to me.

I love her so much..... and I loe him too..........

I feel like a total ass hole....

You're perfectly fine. It's hard to choose, especially when you've got two great people on both hands........if you ever need to talk about anything, the confusion, anything....just come to me. I've been there....and I love you.

You're not an asshole. You're human.

but I am.... because I don't know what to choose.