Chloe’s Reviews > Notes of a Crocodile > Status Update

“ the deeper you love, the deeper compassion grows, and the more you realize that the other suffers, just as you do. When all is said and done, human civilization is ugly and cruel, and the only thing to do is raze it to the ground, and that’s because kindredness is the one true constant between you and anyone else”

i’ve become disgustingly attached to lazi

i am attached to her now

“ I never let others get too close and simply paraded a fake me that resemble their image of me. Sweeping that other me into their arms, they led me in a dance within societal norms, along a trajectory based on a delusion... I was shown the limits, and being confined within a set of walls, tormented me and drained me of life”

“For a long time, my hidden shame had made me push everyone away. I rejected them before they could reject me. I ran away from close relationships even with the people who loved me. I was a blind man fallen into the ocean. Id taken the mirror and smashed it to pieces unable to stand the sight of my hideous disfigured self.”

marketed to be more salacious and less introspective and abstract than it truly is

“ all I know is that I was forced to a corner, and so I violated myself in order to ward off the threat of being violated… it was a mess of my own making, the product of my own savagery and barbarism. But what else was I supposed to do?”

“I’d never before feared being dominated in a relationship. I could practically feel his eyes, probing me, using me as he pleased.”

the author seems so interesting, very sylvia plath esque (just a cursory comparison i’m not saying one imitates the other okay)

i can feel how aura the writing was in mandarin, i’ll get there istg 🤞