twentiestossing’s Reviews > White Nights > Status Update

“I'm terrified even to think about the future, because the future is once again loneliness,once again this stagnant,useless life”

“sometimes I am overcome by moments of such anguish,... Because at those moments it begins to seem that I will never be able to begin living a real life;because it already seems that I have lost all sense,all feeling for the genuine,the real;because,in the end,I curse myself”

i really relate to the “dreamer” feeling so socially isolated and the anxiety of a social visit feeling so painful and unnatural because they can’t connect to the other person so the conversation feels forced and artificial to them.

• “Oh, no, of course I see people, but nevertheless I am alone.”

• “Why, tell me, Nastenka, does the conversation between these two interlocutors never get going?”

“I can't help coming here tomorrow. I'm a dreamer; I have so little real life that I regard such moments as this one, now, to be so rare that I can't help repeating these moments in my dreams. I will dream of you all night, for an entire week, all year long.”

idk if i’m genuinely insane with benophie sitting front row in my brain 24/7, but the meet cute feels SOOOO benophie coded 😭😭😭