Thursday Next > Status Update

Just because you’re ⬆️1️⃣ again doesn’t mean than I’m not talking to myself.

Correlation ≠ causation.

If you suddenly added like 10 more, I might be persuaded that it wasn’t random.

But I’m wary of attributing meaning to basic things.

I didn’t know how to trust that any of this is anything.

But if you only knew how badly I want it to be true…
that’s kind of what tells me it probably isn’t, actually.

I want to reconnect with you too much.

Isn’t it healthier to be lonely than crazy/out of touch with reality?

(The lesser of evils.)

11:12

Now this Monday is really cursed.

I’m not trying to play games or push you away.

I’m genuinely freaked out by the thought of
“what if I’m just talking to myself and he isn’t listening and doesn’t care? (or he is listening, but he’s not talking back to me he’s just laughing while watching me talk to myself)”

But the contrast between me being upset and anxious for some very real reasons

and you saying nothing supportive for over 24 hours while pulling out b.s. like Passionfruit….

Why am I even surprised.

Fine, if you’re so sure, then you go ahead and rule out commitment.


(Question for self: Whom from my proverbial Rolodex shall I initiate some flirtation with first?)