Nigel’s Reviews > Why Suffering?: Finding Meaning and Comfort When Life Doesn't Make Sense > Status Update

Can’t rebel that’s not freedom.

I honestly think I rebel to much at my sophomore problems

My folks talked to me to kindly over the sophomore problems

I think it’s cause teachers, family and members of society always thought I was on the spectrum of autism

That’s never gone to neurology

Cause in 1980 nobody looked out for it.

I had huge anxiety from then today. Only today I read everyday

This is suffering

If you’re not desiring anything you will not be hurt
When anything is taken from you? You will not be hurt.
Kill attachment and hurt, and you will not be suffering
And that’s why the way in life of a monk is joined by many from the east to taste renunciation And feel life apart from the attachments From this world from which Which will only trap you and once trapped You’ll be forced to live

The guy is telling a story about how he needs his mom‘s hand during the crib to stop crying and then next moment talking about playing football and beat up a bit, saying he’s not tough enough

And runs to his mom, whose mom says punch me in the nose he kept on repeating it till he punched her in the nose and blood trickle down

Wtf

And she smiled with a grin get out get back out there you are tough enough

Not in spite, but for dreary redemption

Do we search for truth?

Or do we search for truth not for spite but for redemption

Being conformable in the power of death in him

Some verse….

If sceptics come to the power of God, when justice is suffering.
Not true….
Chesterton says it’s meaningless not coming from power of pain but it’s meaningless coming from power of love…

I see a lot of redundant lessons in life….
Or meta people
Only contacting me to be energy vampires. Sometimes they don’t have anyone as everything is an issue when you see them.
I feel my days are space jammed with these issues of being a mediator which I don’t wanna be on my home time
And the hero or a victim, always having vanishing lines or coupage lines that have nothing to do with the mediator
Alienation

Cause we’re all broken,

It really comes down to the creation of earth. Did God say what he really said….

Matthew Perry said it wasn't his friends, his friends who are close to him who were collaborating and consenting that were really helping him out

It was the people who left him and abandoned them that were his friends

He died of alcohol and drug abuse

Grace 🙏 is hard thing to watch and why do people suffer.

All the while that my head is screaming at me

Saying I misspoke

Now get to his same guy whoever is safety issues with the van all working and he drove it with it for a couple days with the safety issues

Harassed me at work calling me pampered medicated and to drink my coffee

Then gave me silent treatment till he told me that his bottles were left in the vehicle

First time he called me I think besides not talking to me at the Christmas party

So I find a whole bunch of vodka, bottles and energy drinks in my work van

I'm told to give my colleagues. Grace

But my hours are cut and I definitely don't want to go from 3 days a week to 7 days doing double shifts for 3 weeks till we hire new people

Hence the difficult situation of just giving Grace
I let the people know I was on to them

I said they must be collecting bottles to recycle.

Get a comorbidity of mental health issues, having judges, nurses, lawyers, sport coaches, officers, teachers, disable advocates, psychiatrist on in my roots roots .. I guess it's a mental health privilege not a burden... Some say it shouldn't of happened. But crappy days everyone gets sometimes it doesn't mean there crap