Kreckamp7349’s Reviews > The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star > Status Update

F-- "I need to quit--this is killing me. Vanity is killing me. Drugs are killing me...or am I already dead?" Nikki will say stuff like this all the time in his diary. Even though this is painfully evident to the reader, it seems Nikki is too immature or too addicted to heed his own advice.

A-- Why does the band travel to do shows in huge cities like L.A if Nikki can't be trusted there? Sure, they must be money-makers, but is it worth it if Nikki is constantly in danger of overdosing and missing the next show?

F-- "Even if I was drunk driving at least I was driving somewhere"~Nikki describing how his poor leadership skills were still driving the band somewhere. The drugs have made him a control freak. Imagine how much potential he would have without drugs.

I-- Nikki has been talking a lot about how fatigued he was on the girls girls girls tour, and how he was worried about his health after so long being intensely addicted. It seems that may catch up to him on this upcoming tour, which will last another month.

F-- "Would I like to take part in this book? I don't think it would be appropriate." This was said by the owner of Nikki's record company in response to how motley Crüe got control of their record tapes. Needless to say, this perfectly shows Nikki's personality. He wasn't one to hold back by any means.

P-- I predict Nikki won't be off hard drugs for much longer. He has already had a few instances of doing coke and dope, which he is supposed to be entirely off of. Without much support from rehab, it seems depressingly inevitable that he will go right back to the drugs,

N-- it's inspirational to see how much Nikki's outlook has changed now that he has been coke and dope free for 14 days. He even said, "Days like today are beautiful." That's something he would never say while he was on drugs.

A-- Why does Nikki seem to go back and forth about being motivated about quitting? Sometimes it seems like he has given up, but then he does something like this where he tried to detox for five days and literally went crazy.

L-- "How could my parents treat me the way they did?"
This shows the reason behind the addiction problem. Nikki will claim it is just to have fun and get high, but really it is due to problems deep down.

SW-- Nikki just hired some bikers to break Nicole's friend's legs because she was annoying him. This shows how much the drugs have changed Nikki from a music-loving nice guy to a true monster.