Fernanda Ramirez’s Reviews > The Conditions of Will > Status Update

When did you know?
That I love you? He clarifies
I nod
Last Tuesday, he tells me, gaze unflinching
I roll my eyes “we met last Monday”
Yep

And I mean. I don’t know anything, except that I think God is the kind of guy who when someone dies, he’ll sit there and sift through every heartfelt thought, every drunken prayer, every desperate plea for help, ever Mumford and sons song that you’ve sung to look for a hint of confession that you believe in him

The God my mom thinks she serves-he’s so much smaller than who I think the real one is. The real one-to me, he’s everywhere, in everything. And sure, maybe he speaks through the Bible. But also maybe he speaks through Nárnia and Harry Potter despite J.k.rolling lately, and the trees, and science, and the stars, and black holes and the ocean and the way the sky looks sometimes, and you can feel it in your chest.

Here’s what I think, “people read the Bible wrong. It’s a diary of normal people, like us, from thousands of years ago, trying to make sense of the God they’d heard of from their ancestors. They didn’t write it for us to read it now. And I think people read if without true social or historical context, and they bring their own instead.

What with people like these idiot girls with bright eyes and full hearts, not a hair out of place but hearts in the wrong one. Girl like them who bat their eyes as they pick and choose from the Bible to create a world they’re comfortable to exist knowing,

Think about how being a “Christian” has so little to do with acting Christ-like now, especially these days, and especially in America. And I don’t what I believe. I think I believe in God, but now the one Maryanne and my mom claim to know. I don’t if there’s a PR team in heaven, but can you imagine the crisis management team these days?

He’s got rings on his fingers and a few necklaces tucked away, and he is - without a doubt - the mist attractive man I’ve ever seen in my entire life, so much so that I am immediately sure he is gay. That’s just the way the world works