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“ I had found my addiction on that day out with Mabel. It was as ruinous, in a way, as if I’ve taken a needle and shot myself with heroin. I had taken flight to a place from which I didn’t want to ever return. “

“That little space of irresolution is a strange place to be. You feel safe because you are entirely at the world’s mercy. It is a rush. You lose yourself in it . And so you run towards those little shots of fate, where the world turns. That is the lure: that is why we lose ourselves, when powerless from hurt and grief, drugs or gambling or drink; in addictions that collar the broken soul and shake it like a dog

There is a time in life when you expect the world to be always full of new things. And then comes a day when you realize that it is not how it will be at all. You see that life will become a thing made of holes. Absences.Losses. Things that were there and are no longer. And you realize that you too have to grow around and between the gaps, though you can put your hand out to where things were and feel …”