houk’s Reviews > Foster Dade Explores the Cosmos > Status Update

i promise the barrage of updates on this one will stop until i finish it. just. prevalent!

"'i have never met someone,' she said, 'who has a bigger appetite for misery. you're a glutton for punishment, foster dade.'"

XD

i've been wrong all this time. my romenation sentiments have clouded my judgment. my god...foster isn't rome...he's ken

this is gonna sound weird, but i'm getting a similar feeling to when i was watching succession for the first time, in the early seasons. i find it hard to believe it'll be anywhere near as affecting; it's that emotionally invested ethically confusing dread-sick feeling but Worse Because They're Kids

"i tend to think the saddest and most desolate things are also the most beautiful, he would later write. i realize now this is not a passive tendency. i plot my own sadness in the interest of this beauty. whether this is a coping mechanism or what dr. apple calls 'self-sabotage' i don't know. i am sad all the time and there is a magic to it."

i take it back i'm fully sick

keep feeling like i'm gonna cry and then feeling weird about that fact. getting a weirdbad gut feeling adjacent to succession but for wildly differing reasons

i keep typing out and deleting stuff to put here. i don't think anything could possibly capture the mess of Feeling it's pulling from me. i'm a little dread-sick, i think

rip igby slocumb you would've loved foster dade

"adolescence is an exercise in coveting what exists just beyond our grasp; it is this inaccessibility that sustains its magic. at sixteen, i saw in the mosaic of these arbitrary artifacts the spectral contours of a life that shimmered precisely in its evasiveness, gesturing to something i could ascertain only in voyeurism."

keep smiling while reading bc this prose is intoxicating. so excited to keep reading :']

"the half-paralysis of my own sense of unbelonging, lacking that innate interior alchemy that would allow me to push myself from the ranks of the supporting cast."

too early to say anything with certainty, but this may become a shattering addition to a very specific type of affecting novel for Me Personally. stay tuned...