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Anyone who disapproved of them could sit with their disapproval and make curry of it

He’s breathing right beside her, but she feels she’s already mourning him. … She knows that she loves Lenin. Perhaps she always has. As children they thought and baited each other.. and that was love. Recently, their mannered letters bared their souls – that, too, was love.

After all these years, all I know is that my life was spared to serve God. But what is God meant for me to serve in some other way? .. He didn’t disagree that God may have other plans for me, but he said sometimes we have to “live the question”, not push for the answer

What is worry but fear of what future holds? Baby Mol lives completely in the present and is spared all worry.

They had done something to our friend, I could see it in her face. … They’d broken her down and now they were moral overlords

In highschool he fell in love with Dostoyevsky, literature that matched his gloomy doubt

Eva was a professional - one of those girls who always had a lighter, …, ever her own censor remover - the device that department store clerks use to remove theft prevention clips from new clothes. She stole it

Trees that don’t lose their leaves so something else - they collect dust year after year, load up with dirt and car exhaust

These men dimmed my glow, made me numb to touch and angry

We all hoped things would go differently. They did not go differently, they went this way

Going to Madras, brief as his stay was, gutted him. He had to come home to reclaim himself, to reconstruct his being. But not until this moment when Elsie spoke about leaving did he discover that the very through my of it would evoke a terror akin to drowning. Parambil is his solid ground, his equilibrium, and all else feels like water.

Sadie had willed herself to be great: art doesn’t typically get made by happy people.

“What is a game!” Marx said. “It’s tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, it’s the possibility of infinite rebirth, infinite redemption. The idea that if you keep playing, you could win. No loss is permanent, because nothing is permanent, ever”

The way to turn an ex-lover into a friend is to never stop loving them, to know that when a relationship ends it can transform into something else. It is to acknowledge that love is both a constant and a variable at the same time.

Maybe the worst part is, I don’t trust myself anymore. I‘m not sure my instincts are good

She did not regret having dated Abe, or that it had ended… Long relationships might be richer, but relatively brief, relatively uncomplicated encounters with interesting people could be lovely as well. Every person you knew, every person you loved even, did not have to consume you for the time to have been worthwhile.

2/2 was in its place. She liked solitude and the thoughts of her own interesting and creative mind. She liked to be comfortable. She liked hotel rooms, thick towels, cashmere sweaters, silk dresses, oxfords, brunch, fine stationery, overpriced conditioner, bouquets of gerbera, hats, postage stamps, art monographs, …PBS documentaries, …candles and yoga… She was an avid reader… Dov often said she was bourgeois

She hated being drunk, though she did enjoy smoking a joint every now and then. She liked playing games, seeing a foreign movie, a good meal. She liked going to bed early and waking up early. She liked working. She liked that she was good at her work, and she felt proud of the fact she was well paid for it. She felt pleasure at orderly things - a perfectly efficient section of code, a closet where every item 1/2

The alternative to appropriation is a world where white European people make art about white European people, with only white European references in it … A world where everyone is blind and deaf to any culture or experience that is not their own. I hate that world…

He was quick to laugh, warm and energetic, verging in goofy

.., she found them [shooters] disgusting, immoral, and the disease of an immature society

There is a time for any fledgling artist where one‘s taste exceeds one‘s abilities. The only way to get through this period is to make things anyway.

Retrospectively, he realized that he has made a grave miscalculation when he has ended the friendship with Sadie. His mistake had been in thinking the world would be filled with Sadie Greens, people like her. It was not.

Alice was clever, but she had the kind of cleverness that verged on the unkind

it moved Gandhi to say it was the maharajah, not he, who deserved the title “Mahatma”, or Great Soul

I never liked that Christianity begins by telling us we’re sinners

She earns her keep on the wards by being a willing helper to Matron and the nurses, and a support to new patients. She has become family.

There were no mirrors in the house and without evidence of her own face or a husband or children it felt strangely as though she was once again Joy Becker with most of her life ahead of her, not most of it behind her.

It’s the right thing to do

Uncomplicated kind people