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its sooo bold of this book to have 2 love interests and have one of them be a butch lesbian and expect me to care about the other one 🤣

its genuinely soooo bold of this book to have one of the two love interests be a butch lesbian and expect me to care about the other one

people cannot start fucking in the same chapter they meet Please show some restraint. some chastity if you well. let some tension simmer. consider abstinence even

“and the terrible ears: the nose too short, the ears too brief.”

i saw the nona elephant theory a couple weeks ago and was like haha yeah but now rereading?????? talking about how two legs is too few, the word trunk used to describe her, hating having hands and fingers??? what does it mean what does it all mean

“Camilla and Palamedes were loved by Nona,” said Paul. “Pyrrha was loved by Nona. It’s finished, it’s done. You can’t take loved away. We loved you too. Palamedes and Camilla loved you.”

a paragraph so devastating that it made me puke the first time i read it. it will probably never fail to make me cry

i have time to process the tower so im putting it here: tower in the river, coming up from the stoma/hell, probably where john stashed the 10 billion souls that died when the earth did, also the source of the devils who are probably the revenants of the 10 bil, BIG guess that the tower leads into the bottom of canaan house and was blasted open in gtn

“You said, ‘I picked you to change, and this is how you repay me’”
“What else did I say?”
“You said, ‘What have you done to me? I am a hideousness.’”
“What else did I say?”
“Where did you put the people? Where did they go?”

feeling very emotional and realizing whats in the tower/what the devils are….

“It was in Kiriona’s every movement—the bright, swift flexions of her arms, and the way she swung her legs, big and brash, and the weirdly easy, light grace with which she moved her dead body.

Nona had never seen anyone so sad in her whole short life. It made her nearly afraid to die.”

getting gideoned again (try not to cry edition) 😭🔫

“Look at me like you’ve worked out how to kill me,” and then, “More eyebrows,” and then, “Good God, perfect. Do you know, I miss Harrow terribly.”

🤪😭 ITS ALL PAINFULLY REAL 😭😀

“What are Pyrrha’s nicknames for you?”
“Kiddie,” said Nona immediately. “Junior. Small Fry. Cutie Pie. Li’l Bits. Small Cam. Hairy Maclary.”
“Keep going.”
“Nums. No-No. Nope. None. Sweet Nons. Nona-Palona. The Big No.”
“She should be arrested,” murmured Camilla.

sometimes a found family is four people in three bodies that weren’t originally their own

The Saddest Girl in the Whole Entire World is staring at me and im not fucking ready for it again but here we go 😭

“They let me in to see the body, and I realised who I was dealing with and how big this was. Because I wasn’t dealing with a group. I was dealing with a fucking nation. I was dealing with a huge political conspiracy.”

end of the world timeline: be given necromancy by the earth - start livestreaming - create bone wall out of cows - weekend at bernie’s the united states president

Clack. “I cannot bear the though of using you.”
Pause. “Love and freedom don’t coexist, Warden.”
Clack. “This is all there is to love? Simply by being in your life, I have added indelibly to its weight?”
Pause. “Yes.”
Clack. “Camilla, I mean it.”
Pause. “I meant it too. You used to say it to me.”
“We are one flesh.” Clack.
“I am your end.”

cool 😭

“with zombies here, sir, I’m not going to bother with school anymore. There’ll be a war. I’ve got to deal full-team.”
“Then you better attend maths lessons, at least,” said the Angel drily. “I’ve seen your multiplication, Honesty. You’re going to get stiffed.”

“What they did to you and what they wrung from you and what shape they made you fill—we see you still—we seek you still—we murdered—we who murder—you inadvertent tool—you misused green thing—come back to us—take vengeance for us”

i have been WAITING to get to judith’s scenes in this reread

“He sighed and said, “We had the internet. We decided to stream.”
She said, “What is this internet?”
And he said, “See, I did make a utopia.”

imagine living in 2050 or whatever and having the entire world falling apart from climate change and horrible rich people and all of a sudden a bunch of freaks from new zealand start livestreaming necromancy

“Here’s to Camilla Hect, yet another of devotion’s casualties.”

ntn is still the most stressful reading experience of all time, even KNOWING what happens in this book i am still stressed out

“Nona was so grateful to have had a whole six months of this. It was greedy to expect much longer.”

i will not cry again i will not cry again

its NONA TIME! deeply excited because the last half of this book was read in an exhaustion haze in which i was unable to focus on anything besides kiriona gaia over there. but who can blame me for that one

man fuck… G gotta be one of the best short stories ive read yet

“Like, at the end of everything, if it was going to be you and me, layered over each other as we always were. A final blurring of the edges between us, like water spilt over ink outlines. Melted steel. Mingled blood. Harrowhark-and-Gideon, Gideon-and-Harrowhark at last.”

as we always were

“It had bewildered her, back at Canaan House, how the whole of her always seemed to come back to Gideon. For one brief and beautiful space of time, she had welcomed it: that microcosm of eternity between forgiveness and the slow, uncomprehending agony of the fall.”

probably my favorite quote in the whole book

“Whenever you’re ready,” I said. “Don’t worry, honey. I’ll keep the home fires burning.”

actually kinda crazy how good this book is. like this whole series but man sometimes you just gotta be in awe of the craft

you just got GIDEONED!

“I like to think that she would like you. You’d make a hell of a daughter, Harrowhark. I sometimes indulge in the wish that you’d been mine.”

third time reading this and that line finally hit me HARD 😭

although i think this entire series is better on a reread where you can really piece things together i Do wish i could experience the old people threesome for the first time again