Status Updates From Sorrow and Bliss

so many time jumps…

“It’s just been a full day of men who loved me once then stopped or thought they were in love with me, then realized they were just hungry or something.”

“ideally, you want to figure out the reason why you keep burning your own house down.”

“Unless I inform you otherwise, at intervals throughout my twenties and most of my thirties, I was depressed, mildly, moderately, severely, for a week, two weeks, half a year, all of one.”

“Normal people say, I can’t imagine feeling so bad I’d genuinely want to die. I do not try and explain that it isn’t that you want to die. It is that you know you are not supposed to be alive, feeling a tiredness that powders your bones, a tiredness with so much fear. The unnatural fact of living is something you must eventually fix.”