Status Updates From Save Me (Maxton Hall, #1)

Ruby doesn't give a shit about anything 🤧 I'm so proud

“What isn’t true? That St. Hilda’s isn’t good enough for you, just like I’m not good enough for you, because your parents want something else for you? That you only ever do what they want instead of actually thinking for once about what you want from life? You’re such a coward!”

Jesus Christ Ruby is so bold for an 18 year old, can't believe she said all that to a room full of people 🤣

And loving. Must be nice 💀

Ruby is so lucky, her family is so supportive.

She will never forgive me, and even though I knew we had no future together, it’s only in this moment that I grasp what that really means. I will never have the chance to touch her again. I’ll never truly talk to her again. Laugh with her. Kiss her.
The realization shakes me to the core. It’s as though a deep black hole has opened up beneath me, and I’m falling into it. Falling and falling and falling.

“Maybe we could make a distinction between healthy and unhealthy forgiveness,” “Unhealthy forgiveness comes too fast and means there might be circumstances where you let yourself get hurt again. But healthy forgiveness has to come after time to think. In that case, you respect yourself enough not to let yourself be treated badly again.”
“But forgiveness isn’t the same as reconciliation"

“If you forgive people too easily, they get the feeling they can do whatever they like. That means that the anger of the person who had something bad done to them is the punishment for the guilty person, who desperately wants to be forgiven,”

“Forgiveness generally follows a harmful act,” says Ruby’s voice suddenly. “But forgiving someone for the pain they’ve caused you doesn’t make it just go away. As long as you can still feel the pain, forgiveness is wrong.”

Kinda messy for a 23yo(?) college graduate to date a 17yo highschool student, borderline predatory

When I was 21 the thought of an 18 year old kid hitting on me made me gag but go off I guess Graham

Picking tumblr for this is ludicrous 🤣

“That evening, I set up an anonymous profile on Tumblr. I just wanted to let everything out, without consequences. My first post was just a pile of messed-up words. I just wrote out how I felt and that I wished I could be a completely different person. A day later, I got a really sweet message.”
I stare at her. “From Sutton?”

I want to know why that man was on tumblr. What fandom was he in???

For a moment he knew ✨cosmic✨ love

He might just die, it would make no difference

https://open.spotify.com/track/2F3N9t...

Ruby is scarily good at avoiding me. It’s like she’s memorized my timetable by heart so that she doesn’t bump into me anywhere. When our paths cross, she walks firmly past me without deigning to look at me, both hands gripping the straps of her green backpack. Every time I see her, I remember her card, which is folded up in my wallet

James is down bad crying at the gym, everything comes out teenage petulance

I’m giving myself this one evening and night to mourn for what there was between James and me. To grieve for the friend I’ve lost without knowing why.
But no longer than that. I’m still me, and I’ve sworn to myself that I won’t let anything or anyone get in my way.

I love Ruby, only 18 and so wise

James,
Fuck you.
Ruby

😂😂😂😂
Great letter!

Why is she writing him a letter? 😂
Fuck him don't send him a letter!!

“I don’t want to lose you,” I whisper, plucking up every last ounce of courage I can find inside me.

Ruby is so brave 👏👏👏👏

I see the place where I erased James’s name. Nobody but me knows what’s under that white mark, but I run my finger over it and swallow hard.

In the trenches

She gets to sleep with her teacher, but I’m not even allowed to spend time with someone I like without a lecture?

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

It's hilarious how they are going off on him and he's not listening because he's reminiscing about Ruby 😂

A great kisser.

Grand seal of approval right here 🫢😏

Then his turquoise eyes fill with an emotion I’ve seen before but couldn’t place. Now I know what it is: yearning.

✨YEARNING ✨

Signet ring cameo god bless

Our favorite singers and bands (Iron & Wine, me; Death Cab for Cutie, him)

Lackluster taste in manga but impeccable taste in music
https://open.spotify.com/track/1fEGtT...

“To be honest, I don’t even want to go to Oxford,” he continues.
My heart is beating so hard, I can hear it thumping in my ears. “What do you want to do then?”
He inhales with a laugh. “That’s the first time in ages anyone’s asked me that.”

“But it’s such an important question.”

“Do you give all your friends Beaufort stuff?” I ask.
He goes quiet for a bit, and all I can hear is the music playing quietly in the background. “No,” he answers in the end.
That’s all he says.
I don’t know what that means.

Yes you dooo liar 👀👀👀👀

The box set of My Hero Academia, a manga series I’ve had my eye on for months;

Oh my god Ruby you are so boring

Has the author ever even been a teenage manga reader? Sis should’ve been reading the ancient texts - like classic romance manga or BL. Girls don’t read mainstream stuff for pleasure.